Poison

Chapter 23

Rita(RiRi)POV:

I walk down stairs and sit on the couch, waiting for August. The whole day today I've been thinking of what I'm going to say to Drew. Honestly, I'm scared. Scared than a mother fucker. I'm going to see the man who rapped me, the man who put his hands on me for two whole years. Wow. The man who broke down my self-esteem, my self-confidence. Everything about me, I see ugly, because of him. Thanks to August, Rose and Dina they have been there for me through all of this. Believe it or not, even Aaron has been there for me. He seems to know more about abuse than me or perhaps we are on the same level, he just got through his, unlike me. He is not really that open with me, but we talk about deep stuff, from time to time.

"You don't have to go, you know? I'll go and deal with him with my crew"

I stop pacing, which I didn't even realize till now and turn to face him. I quickly shake my head.

"No! I'm not scared, I'm going. I'm definitely not nervous"

"No one said you are, but seeing that you just admitted to it, you don't have to go." He says, touching both my shoulder blades. My breathing picks up and I start feeling hot. I fan my face with my hand. I don't know if I'm getting hot because of his touch or of what's about to happen. Him standing in front of me is making everything real. That I'm really about to do this. See this man die, the man I once loved.

"I need closure, August. This man hurt me and I just want to ask him a lot of questions, that's all"

He chuckles.

"Yeah, you always got questions"

I smile and nod. I look up at him and he is looking down at me. We stare at one another for what feels like ten day, when it is really about 5 minutes. I clear my throat and close my eyes, breaking our contact.

"Um- maybe we should- um get going? You ate, right? You not hungry or need the toilet-"

"Rita... if you need all those, quickly go do them"

"Well, I'm hungry, but I don't need the bathroom"

I pace to the kitchen and pull out a dish. I dish out for myself the food Dina cooked tonight. After I warm them up, I go back in the kitchen.

"I'm done, let's go"

"Go where? That food ain't even touched"

"Yeah, I'll be eating in the car"

"No, you not. No one eats in my car. Quickly, eat up"

I sit on the couch and in ten minutes I was done. I wash my dish, brush my teeth and we are out of the house and we are on our way. A new man is driving us today. I can't really see him, it's dark in the car.

30 minutes later, we arrive. It's definitely not what I expected. It's an abandoned building with spray painted walls. We are parked underground. The security guy opens my door and August opens his. I'm wearing black tights, my black Air Force and a grey Popular sweater. I listened to Liyah's advice to do what I want and I left my hair curly. Two huge guys are standing in front of the steel door with big guns. I swallow a huge gulp.

"Boss."

One of the big guys say.

"Lady."

I force a smile on my face and extend my hand for a hand shake. "Hi- um Sir?" I greet. They chuckle and look at my hand. My hand falls back at my side. "Big Sam. Tee" August greets them. They open the door and we walk inside.

"Your friends are really rude. I was just being polite"

"That ain't how things work here. You can't be nice to anyone. From here on, you shut up. I'll do the talking"