no feelings || jenzie

forty five

johnny

"hayden i swear i didn't tell nadia anything, kenzie means the world to me i would never"
i let out frustratingly trying to figure out how nadia got this information

"yeah i know but what if you were drunk or something"

"i know how personal and private it is to her, i wouldn't of said it"

i go onto notes and start typing i need her to know the truth even if she doesn't believe me i need to let my feelings out
i sat for hours writing (probably more then i've ever written in school) trying to find the right words to explain myself

"yo hayden"
hayden nods letting me know he's listening as he continues to play fortnite

"can i use your phone real quick"
he unlocks his phone and passes it to me concentrating back on the screen

i type in "kenzie" in his contacts and press on her number i copy and paste what i had written and sent it

messages !!
with
kenzie

hayden (johnny)
hey mackenzie, it's johnny
i know i'm not supposed to
be contacting you but i really
need you to know this. I would
never ever tell nadia anything
so private and serious like that
your fathers passing hurt me
as well, i never really hung out
with him but i saw how much you
ment to him if he was important
to you he was important to me,
i wouldn't tell nadia anything
like that nadiawas never as
important as you we're to me i've
known you for years we were
best friends nadia was just a girl
that i liked, you were everything
to me and you still are. you mean
the world to me mackenzie i would
never want to hurt you but now i
have and i'm so sorry it hurts me
to know that i've hurt you, you don't
deserve this, you don't deserve me.
nadia means nothing to me and
never will it's all you kenzie, i love
you with all my heart makenzie ziegler
i'm so so sorry
read 4:14 pm

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"she read it"
i yell in excitement

"who"

"kenz, i messaged her on your phone"

"what did you say"

"it's kind of personal"
i move my fingers around the keyboard waiting for a response

"well it's on my phone so i can look at any point"

"you can read it yourself then, do i say anything else"

"i don't know bro, don't overwhelm her though"

"be simple"
he continues smiling

"probably to late for that"
i respond reading through the long message

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"she left me on read"
i sigh

"at least she opened it, she's gone through a lot just let her be"

"hayden the lady's man"

"oh you know it"
he says spinning in his chair

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guys i just hit 100k reads on this book
WHAT THE HELL THATS CRAZY

when i started writing this i thought i would only get like maybe 50 reads if i was lucky but now over a year later i have over 100,000 reads
thank you all so much for continuing to read this book even after i took like a 6 month break and had no desire to come back but all your kind messages and words made me because i felt so bad for leaving you guys without an ending i love you all so much 😖🥺💗