me and the boys were done with our shopping we didn't do that much. we just went to h&m, hollister, and foot locker. we just got some basic things like some hoodies, shirts and shoes. me and the boy's were heading to the parking lot ready to go back home.
a: yo want me to ride with you? k: no why would i. a: oh cuz it's just gonna be you... k: nah it's cool. a: oh ight see you monday.
i shook them all up and went in my car. i sat down. i felt like shit. emotionally & mentally. my adhd was kicking in. i felt, hyper and antsy. i wanted to move, i wanted to run. but i couldn't. i'm in a mall parking lot. i'm gonna look like a crazy person. i just put my head on the steering wheel. it's kinda hard to hide it. i just try to pretend i'm a normal person, someone without adhd. i hate feeling like i don't belong. i'm gonna try get it under control, i have a doctors appointment in a week or two. gonna try get some medication that'll idk stop it. i can't keep hiding my hyper ness. it gets hard hiding it. i started driving home. i didn't wanna go home. so after driving for a bit i turned. i went to mcdonalds. got the usual, big mac and fries. i was near alex and y/n. i didn't wanna bother alex, so i snapped y/n.
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y/n: what? k: do you want food y/n: a smoothie ? k: ok omw y/n: wait why? k: i'm tired and got food and figured why not get some for you. i was gonna ask alex but he seems kinda mad at me so... y/n: why do you have a mask on? k: so i don't bite my nails y/n: omg i nite my nails too does it help? k: sorta, whenever i go to bite it the mask is there preventing it so. y/n: hm nice technique
i went through the drive thru and got some food for me and her. i came to her door and texted her saying i'm here. she came and opened it after two minutes.
k: got lost in your big ass house huh? y/n: haha funny. look just follow me.
i followed her, we went upstairs and went in her room. i sat down on her spinny chair thing. you guys should know what type of chair i'm talking about. i noticed a big box on the side of her room.
k: what's that? y/n: oh my vanity k: you haven't set it up yet? y/n: no k: after we eat well set it up yeah? y/n: it's okay k: just to get it out the way y/n: hm i guess. k: here's your drink y/n: thank you k: anytime y/n: does your parents know you're here? k: do your parents know i'm here? y/n: i asked first k: no they think i'm at the mall y/n: i see k: your parents aren't gonna get mad right? y/n: oops k: oh my go tell them come on y/n: okay be back
y/n left. i started eating my fries and couple minutes later alex barged in
a: hey y/n just wanted t- he looked at me a: what the hell are you doing here k: oh uh i, salad? i held up the mcdoanlds salad to him a: hm. he took it out my hands and started eating with me a: okay but seriously what are you doing here? k: oh uh me and y/n are kinda close? and i just wanted to come over hangout a little a: it's almost 9 k: i know but i didn't wanna bother you and i was close by. a: hm i see. k: yeah... a: so mattia and her? k: what about them? a: you think something going on between em? k: nah there just weird a: wdym k: like there both awkward people i noticed a: mattia? awkward? no. k: he is, trust me. he can't even do presentations in front of class he'll piss himself. a laughed a: aye imma leave before she comes back k: yeah i'll see you later dawg
