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if you haven't read my latest post on my conversations page please do so it's very important (just go to my profile and then select the conversations tab just under my name if you're on mobile, not too sure about desktop but you can most likely access it from my page as well)

for those of you that have already read it, thank you! i will be continuing this story and a couple others, but updates may be very slow :)

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Now showing private messages between ChokingIsMyKink and Terroriser

ChokingIsMyKink: what's up?

Terroriser: i just wanted to get some closure. for me.

Terroriser: that sounds weird i know, but i'm still not over you? and i've been trying really hard to move on, because you're happy and i should have found peace in that, but i haven't

Terroriser: i've been really snappy and bitchy in the chat towards you and Tyler and for that i'm truly sorry. that's not the kind of person i want to become and not to excuse my actions because they were wrong but i was just angry that i couldn't be enough for you. i'm sorry

ChokingIsMyKink: brian you don't need to apologize i know things have been hard for you, i wouldn't be over this if i was you either. i understand, and so does tyler

Terroriser: i know that, but it's still wrong. i need to get over my broken heart and move on but it's just hard because we're friends and we will always be friends and it just hurts everytime i see you two in the chat but it shouldn't

Terroriser: so i just wanted to text you and let you know that i'm gonna block you. both of you. it's not going to be permanent and it's not because i hate you. this is for me. i want to heal and i want to face the fact that i'm not yours anymore, and that you're not mine, and that you have moved on from me. i'm sorry

ChokingIsMyKink: brian :((

Terroriser: i still love you so so so much. i just need time

ChokingIsMyKink: i understand, but are you really sure about this? what about the chat? what if i need to talk to you?

Terroriser: like scott said, maybe it's time for the chat to die. and i doubt you'll need to talk to me, but if you really do, just ask someone else to ask me

ChokingIsMyKink: you don't have to block me

Terroriser: i do. i need to do this for me. i'm sorry

ChokingIsMyKink: why this though?

Terroriser: i want to be happy, Craig, and i can't allow myself to be happy if i'm still in love with you. i need this. it'll be better this way. i'm sorry again. this has to be done

ChokingIsMyKink: Brian wait

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ChokingIsMyKink: oh :(( you've already blocked me. i hope you find your peace

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ChokingIsMyKink: maybe i'll find mine too

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ChokingIsMyKink: NO

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Now showing private messages between ChokingIsMyKink and WildHoe

ChokingIsMyKink: so brian blocked me :)))

WildHoe: ouch why

WildHoe: did you talk to him about what you said you were going to talk to him about?

ChokingIsMyKink: nope

WildHoe: then why did he block you?

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ChokingIsMyKink: he was really nice about it

WildHoe: oh wow

ChokingIsMyKink: i wish i had gotten to talk to him a bit more tho :/

WildHoe: ik you do, but it's okay. maybe this is better for both of you.

ChokingIsMyKink: yea, he did seem pretty torn up about it, and i'm sure this wasn't an easy decision

ChokingIsMyKink: i didn't even block you after we broke up

WildHoe: i thought you did?

ChokingIsMyKink: i don't think so? anyways who knows

WildHoe: i didn't realize he cares so much about you

ChokingIsMyKink: we didn't even date that long

WildHoe: it doesn't take that long to fall in love

ChokingIsMyKink: i know

ChokingIsMyKink: hopefully doing this can help me get over my feelings for him

ChokingIsMyKink: i only wanna love you for the rest of my life babe :))

WildHoe: awww i wanna love you for the rest of my life too