7 Days of Taufan {✔}

🕯 D Y I N G 🕯

"Now don't lose your fight, kid,
It only takes a little push to pull on through"

I can't do this anymore.

I just can't.

Those are the same old words I keep thinking and saying to myself. My smile, it hides the hurt from within. My joviant personality, it shields the deep sadness I've been holding onto. My positivity, it protects the negative and dark thoughts growing inside my head.

And all of these is for the sake of my brothers, for the sake of Tok Aba, Mom, and Dad . . . and everyone I know.

I want them not to feel sad over certain things happening and happened to them. I want them to know those mistakes they've done are just creating little errors to show that we can better and learn our lesson, hopefully not to repeat it again and again in the future.

But guess that my mistake is to never tell my family my real problem. It's getting too bad and I feel rather sick in the head and chest for keeping it too long.

Sooner or later, I need to let it all out. But I just can't seem to be able to do it.

But at least, my brothers let their feelings out, spilling the beans about their problems to one another. Even Tok Aba tells us his issues as well, especially maintaining the customers' satisfaction for the best drinks and meals he has to offer to them. He even mentioned to Ice once in his first tier form, that peace isn't always in the surroundings but from the inside---whatever that means.

Right now, we're on a camping trip, and of course, Tok Aba and Ochobot come along to escape the reality for once in a life. And boy, our grandad really misses the outdoor world, and he can't stop telling stories of his younger days when he was part of the Boy Scouts, with all the lessons of knotting, bearing, setting up tents and survival fire, and his group of friends nearly being attacked by a wild black panther, he is surely excited to show us what he remembers from those old days.

"Hey, Gempa! Are there yet?" I hear Blaze asking our eldest brother, and I can see on the look of Ice's face turning red and panting very hard. He isn't the sport type, but for a family getaway, he's always on.

"Almost! Five minutes 'till we reach pur goal!" The earth elemental responds, and I know too well what that means---especially when you have experiences hiking with a professional guide, and our professional guide at the moment is Gempa himself.

"You said that for like a hundreth time, Gempa! Are you sure where we're nearly there?" Solar complains in irritation from behind, only to get a smack on the back of his head by Halilintar, who is at the furthest back of the line since he'll be our sweeper-in-charge for this trip.

"Yes, yes. Just don't complain too much, the jungle belongs to the 'others', and we're passing through their home," explains Gempa, "and the more you make noises, the more they get mad at you."