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-Calum-

As soon as I said those words, it felt like a whole hippopotamus finally got off me.

And it felt amazing when I saw her smile, because I was the one who made her smile.

Jade and I discussed what she would be doing after VidCon and she told me that she would be continuing her Australian leg of her tour thing.

I told her that I'd be going home. And she found out that I live in Australia. She got so excited when she found that out.

Right now.... Right now we have a 'couples fest' in Niomi and Marcus' room because it's the biggest room... It's the penthouse basically.

I'm outside getting some air and looking at the amazing view from the balcony while the people inside consists of Jade, Marcus and Niomi, Zoe and Alfie, Jim and Tanya and Joe and Caspar.

"Come inside," I hear a sweet voice say from behind me. Jade stands there with her arms hugging herself as it is quite cold out here. I go over to her and hug her from behind.

We waddle over to the edge of the balcony and she puts her hands on the glass barrier. I rest my chin on her hair and she leans softly into me. I wrap my arms tighter around her waist and she sighs.

"Can you be my girlfriend?" I ask her hesitantly.

She stiffens and straightens up. I loosen my arms around her waist and she walks to the right of the balcony, near the chairs.

"I-I don't know Calum," she says.

"W-what? W-why not?" I ask her, my heart slowly cracking.

"I- this will sound crazy... But." She stops and takes a deep breath. I take a step closer towards her and she takes a step back.

"What?" I edge her on.

"I-I don't know if I trust you Calum, I mean.. I can't deny that I like you more than a friend, but... I.. Ugh. I mean, we just met in real life Calum." She pulls her hair in frustration. She has a mini conversations with herself and she looks up to me.

"W-what can I do then?" I ask her, my voice quiet, I'm not even sure she heard me.

I look up in hope and I meet her eyes. I take in her appearance.

Her tan skin glows slightly from the light of the moon. Her scarred arms wrap around her waist in attempts to bring warmth to her body.

Her jet black hair flows with the subtle wind and her eyebrow furrows as she looks down and thinks.

I take a step towards her and I place my hand softly on her cheek. She leans her head into my palm and I run my thumb back and forth across her cheek.

"-I- I don't think I trust myself either. Just... Let me spend more time with you Calum, then when we go back home, I'll tell you then." She says, scared of my reaction.

What does she mean by 'I don't trust myself'?

"Let's just take small steps for now..." She suggests. I can tell by her voice, that she really wants me to agree with that comment.

I take my hand off of her cheek and I wrap my arms around her waist, pulling her close to me. She wraps her arms around my neck and we stand there.

After a few moments of silence she sighs deeply.

"Okay, small steps." I confirm.