I Ain't Playing [[PJM]] ✔️

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Jimin

Beep. Beep. Beep.

There was nothing else to listen to. Not even the sound of her breathing could be heard. I had sat beside her before after a car crashed into her and I felt scared. This was different.

I was to blame for this. Hana was like this because I did nothing to protect her. I wasn't honest with her from the start and when I did get round to telling her, Eujin was still in my house. I had told her to get out and threatened her so many times. I just wished I was an asshole and drop kicked that bitch out of my house.

I loved Hana. I didn't love Eujin no matter what anyone thought. Hana made me feel human and even when I was an asshole when we first got married, she still stayed with me. She didn't have to wait 6 months to divorce me. That was something I said to piss her off but she could have filed for divorce.

Now we had a family together and we loved each other. But I fucked up. I was too nice to Eujin after everything she had done to Hana. It didn't matter what she did to me because she made me realise that my feelings for her weren't real. Hana was the love of my life and it was my fault she left.

I was a failure of a husband. I couldn't even protect her from her sister or the press.

Hana had been through so much in her life and I helped her get her confidence and self-esteem higher than they had ever been. She didn't take much notice of the hate because she knew that they were just jealous of her. She was beautiful, caring, funny and she was the only one who would ever have my heart.

I blinked away my tears and held her hand in mine.

The doctor's had told me that she was lucky but Hana being in a coma didn't seem lucky to me. But I guess it was better than having to bury her. They told me that she fractured her skull in three places and when she was rushed into surgery, they had to drain a copious amount of blood in her brain. A metal plate was fitted in the worse skull fracture and they put her into a medically induced coma so she could heal without pain.

I had asked if she would remember anything when she woke up but they said they weren't sure.

They explained that the swelling of her brain had gone down and the bleeding had stopped, but until she woke up, they wouldn't know the state of her memory. It pained me, even more, thinking about it.

I kept thinking about our son. What if she didn't remember giving birth to Jihun? What if she forgot about our marriage and what we went through together? I was scared. It scared me to death just imagining what would happen if she just forgot everything.

I didn't want to lose her. I couldn't lose her. What would I do without her? Hana kept me motivated and kept me from feeling sad all the time. I should be the one who was hurt. I hurt her too many times and she didn't deserve this. It was me who deserved this. I just wished I could take her place because it was my fault.

I didn't get to her in time.

My bottom lip trembled as I started to cry and I pressed my forehead against her hand, my body shaking as I tried to sob quietly.

"I'm so sorry," I cried, "Baby, I'm so sorry. This is my fault. If I had been smarter then none of this would have happened. This is all my fault. I never meant for this to happen. I love you so much, baby. You have to come back to me. I need you. I can't live without you. What am I going to do without you? What am I going to tell our son? That his dad is a fucking loser who couldn't protect the love of his life. Hana, I'm begging you, come back to me. I need you!"

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Those fucking machines.

I just wanted to hear her voice or watch her pretend to be me during a dance practice. Fuck, I didn't even care when she pretended to be any other member dancing. She was pretty good after I started to teach her.

Hana was my rock and I treated her like a piece of shit. What husband does that? I should have punched Eujin in the face but I was told never to raise a hand to a woman. Although, Eujin couldn't be classed as a woman. She was a god damn troll. A waste of space. Her parents were fighting to get her out on bail but my lawyers were doing everything they could to keep that troll locked up until the trial.

My friends were going to make sure she wouldn't be able to leave jail anytime soon. I didn't care if she went to a nuthouse because that was where she belonged. I didn't want her ruining my life ever again. I didn't want her to bring Hana down and make her feel so insignificant.

Her parents had no idea what was heading their way and I couldn't wait to see their faces when they got a letter telling them they were being sued by me and my company. I was going to ruin everything they built from scratch. I was going to take everything from them because they are to blame for the way they treated Hana.

They were going to regret ever hurting Hana.

I knew I was feeling sorry for myself.

I regretted everything that I had ever done to upset her. I couldn't change what I had done, but when Hana woke up, I was going to do everything I could to make her life better. She was going to be worshipped and be treated like the queen she was.

I sniffed and wiped my eyes, turning to see Jihun staring at me, "Your mummy will get better and I swear on my life that I will make things better. I love you, Jihun and I always will. And I love mummy more than anything in the world. You and mummy are everything to me,"

I looked back at Hana and stood up. I pressed a gentle kiss to her forehead and brushed her hair out of her face trying not to hurt her.

"I love you, baby," I whispered, "I promise I will be back tomorrow. I promised to sing to you and that is what I will do,"

I wiped my eyes of tears once more and pushed Jihun's pram out of her room. I took one last look at Hana and closed the door.

Hana, please wake up. I love you.

A/N: 

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