try to knock down my walls

chapter 17 " you lost"

Lisa pov

it was the next school day and our third period got canceled so we had 50 minutes till we had lunch and then training. Sofia, Jennie and I already changed our clothes and went to the library where the rest are.

We got in the library and Sofia and me speed-walked hoping that the cushions were free for us. we saw Linn, Lea, Lara, and Amanda sitting on the big cushions there was only one over, Sofia threw her bag in front of me blocking me from running. She jumped on the cushion all smiley.

I walked over there and looked at her sulky. She claimed it and got her bag. I walked to share one with Lea but I saw Jennie's bag there suddenly. I looked at her and she walked towards me.

" my aiming skills are good," She said laying next to Lea. I sighed and went to share one with Lara. She made room for me and I lay down, closing my eyes trying to sleep. 

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Lara pov.

Lisa laid down next to me closing her eyes immediately. I just continued reading my book until I smelled CIGARETTES!! I decided to let Lisa sleep and talk about it with her during lunch. but still, the thought didn't leave my head.

(time skip)

 the bell rang means it is lunch break now, the rest got up fast leaving me and Lisa alone. I pushed Lisa a little and she woke up.

" Come on," I said already standing up.

Lisa pov

I woke up and Lara told me to come in a little cold voice. I immediately got my bag and walked next to her.

" what's wrong?" I asked her. she just ignored me and walked in the ladies toilet

" I need to pee," She said standing in front of a toilet door. I stopped walking and froze.

no weird thoughts Lisa NO WEIRD THOUGHTS

" Do you want to come in?" She asked me as I stood close to her

LISAAA!! mind clear!!

" No, I will wait outside," I said walking out of the lady's toilets. I waited for her and she came out after a few minutes.

" Why are you still waiting?" She asked me. I walked next to her wanting to ask her what's wrong. 

" Is there something wrong?" I asked her.

" Let's go to the changing rooms," She said walking out of the school door. I followed behind her being met by the rain.

in the meantime

Leigh: What are they going to do? Leigh asked Sofia and Linn.

" Let them have their sexual moment," Sofia said smirking walking in the cafeteria 

" We will ask them later I am hungry," Linn said dragging Leigh with her to the cafeteria

Lisa pov

we got in the changing room and she looked at me for the first time today. 

Lisa, control your hormones it's too soon!!

 Lara came closer to me looking at me

Lisa, come on control it!!

" Why do you smell like cigarettes?" She asked me curiously.

my hormones were gone in an instant and I looked away

"...."

" We had a bet!" She said walking away from me. 

I looked at the ground remembering yesterday night.

yesterday night

Lisa pov

The twins and Rina got away. and I cleaned up the already used package of cigarettes. I opened the two balcony doors and sat on the couch being proud that I didn't smoke.

I heard a knock on my door. I got up and opened the door and saw my let's say not good friends. they got in and looked at my new kitchen. My friends are homeless deal drugs, steal money, and fight people for no reason. 

" Nice kitchen Lisa," Luuk said the badest friend of all.  

" what are you guys doing here?" I asked them annoyed

Luuk got a big cigar that he probably stole and lit it up. I looked at the others and saw them smoking weed.

" Is that how you treat you, friends, after months," Luuk said looking at the fridge. 

" Here Lisa have one?" Brian said giving me a joint.

" No, I don't do that anymore," I said annoyed

" Why not," He asked me.

" I stopped," I said looking at it.

" Bullshit!" Luuk said taking the joint and lighting it

Ach!! If I tell them that I have a bet with someone they will push me to say who. and if I say it Luuk would definitely tease me harder and say how stupid I am as he already broke my past relationships.

" OKAY, Give it to me," I said. He gave it and I blow and smoked cigarettes with them until they were gone.

End of flashback

Lisa pov

" Look I am sorry I lost the bet, But it was just..." I said hesitantly.

" Just what?" She asked disappointed

" Why does it matter to you in the first place, It's my life and if I chose to smoke I will smoke!" I said looking at her. She looked a bit scared but covered it up.

" I-I do care because it's your health and I saw that you were disappointed too!" She said shouting a little bit

" That's, live you get disappointed and then will go on, and it's my health, you are nobody but a..friend!" I said shouting harder than her. She flinched hard and I could see her blinking her eyes a lot.

" Just tell me what I have to do if I lost the bet," I said to her.

" You don't remember?" She asked me kinda hurt. 

" No, I don't remember," I said looking down.

" if you lost the bet you will bring me on a date... But forget it," She said walking out of the changing room. 

" FUCK!!" I punched the wall a few times seeing my knuckles bleed. I sighed and also got out of the changing room.

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