𝐁𝐨𝐲𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐀 𝐖𝐞𝐞𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐝 || ᴛᴀᴇᴋᴏᴏᴋ

°11°

°Taehyung°
___________

"I miss you already" I re-read the text for the n'th time, battling with my inner self.

I don't know how to reply to these kind of texts!

I seriously love these kind of gestures but we are just in a fake relationship and his actions scream other ways---

Is this a lie, Kitten.

I don't know why but with him it doesn't feel like a lie--- may be it was just my stupid mind over thinking everything.

He's totally into his job and it make me crave for more--- more than I intended in first place. It may because of my lack of dating life. Everything he did and said to me got me hot, his every small actions. I’m ashamed at how easily I let him take over, but I’d never felt so pulled to anyone before and it was overwhelming.

He's doing everything in his way--- I'm paying for his service and I should be the one who's drawing lines in our fake relationship, I should be the one who's planning everything but again I love when he's taking charge--- it feels like this is something, we are something.

I know I can't feel this way but I love this feeling---

In the end I'm the one who's gonna get hurt because of this overwhelming feelings but I don't want to stop this anytime soon---

I love this feeling, it may only last till this weekend and I just wants grab ahold of it till then, atleast---

°°°

"Woah, my taetae is in love" Jiminie scream in happiness and I grumbled, flopping down face-first on to my bed.

"You are making things up Jiminie, this is not love" Jiminie sat down beside me and patted my back.

"I'm confused---" I buried my face in a pillow, making him laugh.

"You are not confused. I can clearly see it in your face, you know what is happening---" I sighed, scooting up into a sitting position. I looped my arms around my shins and rested my chin on my knees.

"I'm scared too---" He's doing his job and here I'm having inner battle with myself. I clearly know what is happening with me and it's scaring the hell out f me.

I can't feel this way to him, when I'm the one who's paying for his service.

But my stupid brain couldn't understand that.

"Why in the world I lied to Dahyun?! It all started because of my stupidity!"

"Maybe this is your destiny, who knows" Destiny? I hooted a laugh.

"I don't believe in destiny and those shits." This is no fairy tale--- life is totally different.

"Tae, let's think about me and My boyfriend. I crushed him for like forever-- but I never thought he'd nitice someone like me but in the end he was the one who proposed." I know everything but I don't feel like believing Jungkook is my destiny.

Yoongi hyung is good person, and so Jungkook but I don't know---

"Taetae---"

"I'm going to make it right Jiminie, I can't feel this way around him." Orelse I'll get hurt.

I'm going to make everything professional. I'll draw the line between us, I'll make plans from now on--- but I know in the end I'm going to crumble!

°°°

Do you like this chapter?

Thank you for reading❤

Love,
Dumb Duck🐣