𝐍𝐎 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 | Hwang Hyunjin

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- - Idk why but I can't  copy this shit and my keyboard isn't Chinese but even if it was I had no idea how to write this, but like u can see the song. Google translate says it means something like "no accident" but like I have no fucking idea  - Kun - -

And all the confidence I just had, suddenly escaped my body, from one moment to the other, it was just all gone.

Exactly like this morning. I stopped for a moment and looked up to him.

My heart skipped a beat. He stood there, against the wall, still waiting.

I looked back to the ground.

Then I continued walking, like I didn't saw him. I tried to ignore him.

But he cached up and walked next to me.

"You wanted to talk to me", he started.

He expected something, I knew it.

I mean I was very determined when I interrupted them.

I  still shyly looked the ground.

I didn't wanted to look him in the eyes, it just made me even more uncomfortable.

"Uhmm, what did you do the last days?", I asked.

He rolled his eyes.

That was not what he expected.
Yeah, I was pretty disappointing.

"Is that everything you wanted to tell me?", he asked.

I nodded slowly.

"I hung out with the boys, nothing much", he answered the question.

"What about you?"

"Same. I mean, I didn't hung out with boys, but with the girls- you know what I mean."
Why did I had to be so cringe?

He just nodded.

"Mr. Suh is here, he can bring you home", he suggested.

I nodded.

Then, there was an awkward silence between us, all the way to the car.
It's like we both wanted to talk, but nobody knew what to say. We entered the car.

I sat in the back and Hyunjin in the front.

He normally always sat next to me.

But I don't think he wants to sit next to me now.

Nobody said anything for a moment.

"Uhmm, I heard what you and Hani talked about", he started slowly and with a quiet voice.
He turned around to face me.

"You did?" I asked surprised.

I hope I didn't said dumb stuff.

"Yeah, you guys both shouted pretty loud. It wasn't really hard to understand you."

"Oh", I said embarrassed and but my lips.

He had to smile a little bit.

Cute.

"You were really brave. But you know, the things she said, that your pathetic, and ungrateful and not special, that's not true", he said calmy.

"Thanks, but you don't have to be nice to me", I said and smiled shyly.

"No but it's true."

There was another moment of silence.

He opened the mouth. It took some time until he said something.

"And what you Said about me, that was also pretty cool", he smiled again.

I simply smiled.

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"Bye", Hyunjin said infront of my door and continued walking. He told Mr. Sub that he could already go, he wanted to walk the last bit from my house to his own. 

"Bye", I answered.

But I knew that that wasn't enough for him. I wanted to tell him so bad right now. I wanted to tell him what I feel, that I like him too.

But I couldn't.

I opened my mouth, but not a single word came out.

And he walked away.

A tear ran over my cheek.

Oh my god.

I can't cry because of a dumb thing like this.

Because I don't have the balls to tell him.

Ugh.

Why am I like this?

I looked at him going further, until he disappeared from my view. And it felt like another opportunity disappeared.

I went into the house.

"Hey sweetie", I could hear my mother. I smiled. I'm always happier when she's at home.

"Hi mom."

"How was your last day?"

"Mhh. Good."

"I saw these two girls on your Instagram. Are they your friends?"

"Yes. Esther and Chaeyoung. They're really nice."

"You should bring them over when I'm home. I want to get to know them. And how's Hyunjin going?", she asked smiling.

"Good, I guess", I answered.

She came to me and looked at me.

"Oh my god, are you crying?", she asked when she saw the tears on my cheeks.

I tried to wipe them away.

"No, I'm okay", I quickly said.

She took my hand and dragged me to the couch.

"I know you don't like it when I ask too many questions, but when something is making you cry, I need to know. Tell me what's wrong honey", she said and patted my back.

"It's not that big of a deal", I tried to calm her down.

"Is it about a boy?"

"I-it's because I am having a hard time with Hyunjin."

"Oh no. Mh. That's not good. I know he is your friend and he seemed to be very nice. I don't know what problem you have, but I am sure it will get better. You just need to hear what you heart says."

"Oh my god mom, that's so cheesy", I laughed.

She also smiled.

"But it is true."
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(A/n)
Weird chapter, it's a filler

I have a lot of fillers that aren't really fillers but we're nothing really happens

I will also explain the characters a lil bit when I finished the story and show my inspirations to each character

The chapter tomorrow may will come a lil later bc I will finally go on vacation

Okay but

Bye huns