𝐍𝐎 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 | Hwang Hyunjin

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- - 6.18.18 - Bil cutie - -

I stood up and went into some slippers and a hoodie.

I tried not to make to much noise to not wake up my mom.

I don't even know if she was already sleeping, she probably was, but I didn't wanted to find out
I walked outside and closed the door. Than I walked to the bench at the end of the street, where we also talked four days ago.

I sat down. And I just took a deep breath. My heart started beating like crazy.

Some moments later, Hyunjin came.

He looked adorable, with his hoodie and the joggers.
He didn't looked very tired, his sleep schedule also must be on summer break mode.

But there wasn't many hope left in his eyes.

"Aren't you cold?", he asked and looked down at me.
Even tho I was wearing a hoodie, I still just wore shorts.

"I'm good", I answered.

He didn't wanted to complain and sat down next to me. And again, there was this awkward silence in the air.

"You wanted to talk", he began after a few moments.

I didn't wanted to say anything. But at the same time, I wanted it so bad.

"Uh- uhm", I started.

"I hope it's important, I stood up out of my bed for this. Even tho I wasn't sleeping, I still had to walk out here."

I took a deep breath.

"Hyun, I wanted to say sorry."
Okay, that was a good start.

"For what?"

He looked kinda confused.

"For breaking your heart. I feel so bad", I explained.

The boy just sighed.

He stood up from the bench. His back faced me, he didn't turned around.

"It's not your fault, you don't like me back and I can't force you to."

I gulped.

Okay.

It's the moment.

Now or never.

"But I like you", I answered quietly.

Finally.

I said It.

Oh my god.

Oh my fucking god.

It feels so good.

It just feels so relieving.

Hyunjin turned around to face me. He looked very surprised. And confused. He didn't saw that coming.

"You like me?", he asked to be sure he heard me right.

I nodded.

He looked still confused, but his expression quickly changed. He looked disappointed now.

Wait.

Disappointed?

That wasn't the reaction I hoped for.

"(Y/n), you don't have to force yourself to say that", he said and looked down.

"What? Hyunjin. I like you. I am in love with you. Isn't that what you wanted? I don't care about anything or anyone."

He still stood there, he didn't move.
He looked me in the eyes.

"What do you expect? That I am all happy and forget everything what you did?"