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Chapter 16 [Part 2]

Author: Candy On

Translator: Haruhi

Proofread: Wendy

♫ 𝘐𝘵'𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵? ♫

Special by Saifah

[T/N: Try reading this while listening to Earth Patravee (whyru ost) T-T]

The orange light that comes with a descended sun across the horizon line, and a chilly breeze which is hitting my face right now, are absolutely not helping at calming my thoughts.

I'm clueless at how I should begin my conversation with Zon, and I don't know what I should say in order to get our relationship back to what it was before.

There are millions of words in my head but I couldn't decide which ones I should use to confess first.

It's so freaking difficult, way too difficult.

"Saifah."

A familiar voice calls out from somewhere very close to where I stand, and as soon as I raise my head, I realise it's Zon standing there.

"How are you? I hope you are well, na."

"Yes," I nod, trying hard not let my heart beat more erratically than this. "Not bad."

"Ai'Thee said that you want to return the guitar to me."

"..."

"Well, where's the guitar?"

"Guitar? I thought I already told them that I will bring it tomorrow."

"Eh?" Zon makes a puzzled face. "Damn it, then why did they lie to me to see you?"

"I have something to say."

"But I don't." Zon snaps and turns away, but I reach for his hand first.

"Zon."

"Let me go Saifah."

"I really have something to say to you."

"..."

"Please Zon." The look I give him is filled with pleading and begging. I don't know what Zon is thinking, but I would like him to give me a chance to talk with him.

"What do you want to talk about?"

"About the things that happened during the concert night." I voice out the thing I want to talk about.

Inside my mind, I'm confused myself in which direction I should lead this conversation. Should I lie to him saying that I was unthinking at that time, or should I confess my real feeling?

"About that concert night, just forget it. I don't want to recall it, and you too should forget about it. Let it go."

"How can I forget about it Zon?"

I really can't afford that he wants me to forget my feelings like that. At first, I also thought of telling lies to him, but as soon as Zon snapped like that, I came to terms that I can't do it.

"You also know that I didn't think of it that way."

"And what do you think?!" Zon yelled at my face. "What do you want Saifah? You know exactly what I'm scared of and I'm thinking way too much about this particular thing. I'm scared that everything will be happening because of what I promised. I'm scared that I really fall into the novel. Like my life will never happen how I really want it to, but it would damn happen in accordance to what someone else determined. You are not me, Saifah. There's no way you would understand me."