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Part six-explanations

I struggled to find words,what do I even say in this situation?what must he be thinking?i have to tell him.

I took a deep breath and began to explain.

"It's only an idea at the moment but I'm thinking about it.This house,this neighbourhood,this street it all just reminds me of everything that's happened and I just think it would be a good idea for me to get away from it all you know?i don't know how long I can stay around here knowing all the things that have happened to do with my family." I told chris.

"Wait,what?have you even thought this through?" Chris asked sitting himself down.

"Of course ive thought this through,this is not an easy decision for me to be making." I raised my voice slightly unintentionally.

"Where are you going to stay?how are you going to get the cash?how are you going to get there?" Chris asked getting slightly more sad with each sentence.

"My aunt contacted me online today and she said if I ever wanted to I could go and stay with her and her son in New York which is why I was searching flights because I was curious as to how much it would be. As to how I could afford it I don't know but I got a text this morning from my dads solicitor regarding his will,it went through so quickly I don't know why.He left all his savings to me,that should cover the costs."

Chris looked up at me from having his head in his hands. "Yeah and what about me?you know your boyfriend?do I not matter in this situation to you at all?" Tears began to fall from his eyes,the anger and disappointment he was feeling had built up and he just had to let it out.

"It wouldn't be forever,i haven't even made a final decision yet,im thinking about it. Of course you matter,you were always the first thing I thought of when I even started thinking about this,you think I want to leave behind the one and only person that makes me remotely happy?" I cried out.

"If I'm the only person that makes you remotely happy then why are you thinking about flying off thousands of miles for God knows how long leaving me?" Chris looked me in the eye,stood up and walked out.