🌈⭐️Love Maze🌈⭐️

JF 눈

"Looking only directly at you
So you don't go away"
-BTS

Do you ever get the feeling that someone is staring or looking at you when your minding your own business? I feel this way every time I see him or JF. I have lunch in 4th period, having 8 periods every day, I have what is considered as the "first" lunch. This year I did not have anyone to sit with at lunch like years before, my friends had different lunches than I did and, in the end, it did not work out.

I usually went to the library with my friends after we ate lunch to just hangout or play UNO, with the library being about 4 minutes from the lunchroom it made it easy to just get there and get in. Lunch was like clockwork, I would eat my lunch, go to my locker, go to the bathroom, and go to library if it were not closed. In the library I had a specific table where I would sit at, it had a table with about 4 seats, about 10 steps away from the main doors. No one would sit at the table with me so I would put me feet up on the seat directly in front of where I was sitting. Normally I would either sleep for a couple minutes, go on my phone, or do some homework that I already had from earlier.

I have noticed JF with his twin and two other friends, but they sat in the back of the library across to where I sat. I do not know if it were a coincidence or not but every day when I went into the library JF would be sitting to where he could see if I entered or left the library. Every time when I came in, I would lock eyes with him to the point where I did not do this action because I knew he was looking at me. It bothered me because I felt like I was under a spotlight due to him always staring at me.

I don't know if I was just feeling paranoid or something but I felt his gaze on me, it was either that he was looking at me or he was looking behind me I couldn't figure it out. If he wanted to say something to me, he could have had the confidence to do so. Occasionally, I would catch his friends look at me to but briefly, honestly it bothered me that they looked at me because it was starting to get annoying. Me and the twins had 5th period together which was customer service or teachers assistant, this in turn would make it that we were in the same room. I thought of confronting them, but I figured it was a waste of time.

As much as I like JF, I would say his biggest setback would be his staring problems not like it's a bad thing but it would be a bad thing if he is constantly looking at you without even saying a single thing to you.

Now and days I sit with my friend at lunch because I did not know she had the same lunch as me. My friend is in the 11th grade now being in the 12th grade. Me and my friend at sometimes go to the library but I do not see him in there with his little friends, he now just sits in his car for lunch for some reason.