Anna: Harry Styles

Wolves

16th of March 2018

"Here, this is for you," Ruby said, handing me an iced latte as we sat backstage waiting for Harry and the band to finish their soundcheck.

"What? What for?" I asked, looking up at Ruby who had a sympathetic smile on my face, holding her long black in one hand and my iced chai latte in the other.

"I know you've had a rough couple of days and that it's rocking you so I thought an iced chai latte may help a little bit," Ruby said and I sighed as she handed me the latte and sat down next to me on the other side of the red couch in the dressing room.

"You don't have to do that Rubes, you know that."

"I know babe, but I want to. Sometimes something like this can make a difference," Ruby said and I nodded in agreement.

I took a long sip of the cool beverage, instantly understanding Ruby's comment even more. The small coffee making me feel the best that I had all day.

Harry spent most of yesterday afternoon doing radio interviews around Antwerp in Belgium, which is where we are now.

So, I found myself sprawled out on Ruby's bed with James and Ruby on the other side of me as I told them what was going on, both of them being more than sympathetic towards me, which I hated but I let it happen nonetheless.

"Thanks, Rubes," I said in defeat, hating the fact that people were taking pity on me but I guess that was something I was going to have to get used to.

One of the things I hated the most when my dad passed away when I was fifteen was how so many people treated me differently.

People at school I had never spoken to started giving me sympathetic looks and sad smiles. My teachers gave me leniency with assignments and gave me apologetic looks whenever someone bought up their dad in class.

The only people who did not treat me differently were my best friends; Christsbel, Danny and Scarlett.

It was one of the things that stopped me from going insane was how normal my friends were about it. Of course, they were kind and sympathetic about the situation, but they did not treat me like some fragile china doll who needed protection from everything.

We sat in silence for a while as I sipped on my coffee and responded to emails, something that I had neglected to do in the past couple of days. There were multiple emails from the company that hires and loans me out to other businesses and people; Thread Online.

James was on the phone with Isaac in the bathroom and Ruby was watching something on her phone, the slight peace and quiet soothing and a nice change for once.

I love the fast-paced aspect of the business but sometimes it's just nice to have a break every once in a while and when I find myself relaxing on a couch for hours at a time during the day, it is something that I like to savour.

I spoke to Lauren on the phone yesterday, who gave me a proper in-depth rundown of everything that has been happening with Mum.

Lauren, like myself, noticed the odd forgetfulness and mood changes in our mum, so she suggested that maybe she should see a doctor about it. At first, we thought it could have been menopause since she is in her mid-50s, but Lauren and my mum quickly learnt that it was something more serious than that.