Spider-Man One Shots

It's okay to cry

A/N: request from asandefur05
I hope I did alright haha. The music makes it better I think personally.

Also, a lot of y'all's said you wanted a part two for that last chapter, so like, what would that part two entail? If you give me a basic idea for a part two I'll totally do it.

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Peter stared out at the lake, heat beating down on his black suit.

Everyone around him was quietly saying their condolences each other, especially to Pepper and Morgan.

Peter stayed quiet. Right when he had came back, his whole world fell apart.

Peter had made sure he wouldn't cry. He didn't want to mourn another death. Not another.

He didnt want to be sad. He had just started getting better after uncle Ben, and now the process was starting all over.

He didn't want to lay in bed at night crying. He didn't want to have the sympathetic looks as he walked down the hallway.

He didn't want Ned and MJ not knowing how to talk to him for weeks. He didn't want any of it. The only thing he wanted was his dad back.

He wanted to stay strong like everyone always told him to.

For Pepper. For Morgan.

Peter had kept it together all day long, even when the world's greatest defenders broke down.

It didn't feel like anyone knew the Tony Peter knew.

Peter felt completely alone. A stranger amongst everyone who was grieving.

"So... How'd you know him?"

Peter looked away from the lake to the person speaking to him.

It was scarlett witch, or Wanda Maximoff.

"Oh, I, I just knew him from being Spiderman... I guess." Peter said, not lying but not exactly telling the full truth.

Wanda nodded, "He was a good man. He saved a lot of lives."

Peter refrained from explaining that Tony had saved his life, but instead just nodded, "Yeah."

They sat in silence for a long moment before Peter straitened up and excused himself.

He made his way to the front lawn, sitting on a bench.

He was trying his hardest to not not feel sad, he was doing everything he could to ignore the fact the Tony was gone. He was pretending it never happened.

But he was a smart kid. He knew better. He knew it happened. He knew there was no reversing death.

He stared at the green grass, eyes glossing over.

"Peter? People are wondering where you went."

It was Steve.

And Bucky.

They sat down on either side of Peter.

"Peter... What's going on?" Bucky asked quietly.

Peter blinked, eyes stinging with tears.

Memories slowly started to drift through his mind.

Every afternoon in the lab, every movie night, every early morning, waking up to the smell of coffee brewing. None of it would be the same.

"I know everyone wants me to stay strong, but, I miss him. Don't be mad, but I just... I miss dad." Peter said letting a tear go.

Steve and Bucky's face softened.

"Oh Peter... No one's mad. We miss Tony too." Steve said.

"It's okay to be sad... I miss group dinners, when Tony would make omletes, and movie nights when he'd always find the strangest movies to watch." Bucky quietly said.

"When he had spontaneous Nerf gun wars... And when he was forced to play princess tea party with Morgan." Steve smiled sadly.

Peter began to cry, for the first time since Tony passed.

It really hurt, but letting it all out felt honestly, relieving.

Peters small quiet sobs came slowly, as he realized nothing would ever be the same.

He cried, because all he wanted was his dad back.

He cried, because after everyone, who knows who would leave him next.

He cried because he knew Morgan didn't understand that dad was gone.

He cried because he missed him.

Before Peter knew it Bucky and Steve were pulling him into a hug.

Peter didn't pull away like he would have expected to do ten minutes ago. Instead he fell into it, crying into their shoulders.

Hot, salty tear streamed down his face as his vision went blurry.

He held on to Steve and Bucky close, not ever wanting to let go of the comfort they gave him.
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Pepper went out to the front lawn, looking for Peter.

She found Bucky, Steve and Peter in a group hug, Peter crying softly.

It was an unlikely group, but Pepper knew not to disturb the moment.

She had been worried about Peter. He had seemed to be pushing anyway everything, including all his emotions.

This was good for him, Pepper knew.

It seemed like recently she always had tears, but this time, the tears were bittersweet, seeing her son finally fall into the grief he needed to go through to ever get better.

Quietly, she walked back to the lake, holding these moments in her heart, saving them as memories for a day where she could look back on them and smile at all of the love and comfort people were willing to give.

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"It's gonna be okay. Someday Peter, everything's going to be okay, you know that. But right now, just let it out, okay?" Steve whispered, still hugging Peter, Peters tears soaking through Steve and Bucky's suits.

They stayed there like that for a long time, until the sun was beginning to set, and the quietly parted ways, and Peter wiped away his tears.

He knew they were right. Someday he would be okay, but not today.

Not yet.

Right now, he was going to cry, and that was okay.

Crying is okay.

Peter might never understand it, but he would believe it.

Later my friends 😢

Ngl I cried while making this lmao