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i will still try

but iam still determinedi will still tryas my cheeks run dryi went back to the classas though nothing was wrongmaybe im just beingparanoidbut is it my fault? i am not yet accustomedto see my love love someone elsei deserve some sweet timeto say th...

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but i
am still determined
i will still try
as my cheeks run dry
i went back to the class
as though nothing was wrong
maybe im just being
paranoid
but is it my fault?
i am not yet accustomed
to see my love
love someone else
i deserve some sweet time
to say the least
he shared routes with me again
as we left for our homes
i had a nice day
didn't have any problems
you had a nice day
i unfortunately didn't
because i saw you both today
laughing away
it's still hard for me
it's harder than they say
no matter how harsh i try to be
i am still very much
weak
i was pretty sure
i'd break down again
as soon as i
reach my place
and i did
exactly the same
have i gone insane?
have i gone mental?
what's wrong with me?
i go on my phone
and begin typing
how to be happy
how to be happy
how to be happy
but the answers
don't really satisfy me

as long as you're together
i can't seem to find peace.

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Double update:)

Also the "how to be happy" Part is inspired by Caroline Kaufman's poetry from her debut poetry collection called "Light Filters In".

Absolutely love that book, 10/10 recommended!

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