Never Not

+십팔+

I slide my arm on the soft bedsheet and I hummed because of the softness and how comfortable i am while lying on the bed.

I did the same on my left foot and once again feel the softness of the  bedsheet and at the same time i lean to buried my face on my soft pillow.

My foot bumped on another foot and i feel an arm around my waist slightly tighten and that's when i realize that I'm not alone in this bed.

I heard a soft snore and i smile knowing who is behind me right now. I didn't even know how to explain what I'm feeling right now but one thing is certain, I never been this happy and contented with my life.

This second chance with my sarang really brought so much joy and love in my life and I'm so thankful to feel and treasure every single moment i have with him.

I looked up to our side table to see what time is it and the clock said it's 6am.

I don't usually woke up this early but today i did and i don't know why.

Having a feeling that i will not be able to fall asleep again i gently hold Namjoon's arm on my waist and slowly lift it up but when i did he move and buried his face on the crook of my neck and tighten his arm more around my waist.

At this point breaking free from his hold on me is impossible so i didn't bother to make another i attempt.

I just lay there and let him hold me. I put my arm on his arm that is wrapped around my waist and gently draw circles using my thumb.

I can feel his warm breath fanning my neck and goosebump started to form from my arms down to my legs.

I lifted his arm again but not to try to breakaway from him but to face him.

When i successfully face him. I put my right arm on his waist and put my left hand over his chest and i buried my face on his neck.

I peppered small kisses on his neck and he move slightly and groaned.

I smiled a little when i heard him groaned.

When i realize that it's still early to wake him up i stop what i was doing and i started to sniffed him, taking in his lavander bodywash scent.

I closed my eyes while smelling him  and i slightly jumped when he spoke.

"Please stop doing that. I'm starting to have a morning wood." He whined using his deep and husky voice.

Realizing what he mean by that i looked up at him and smile apologetically.

"Sorry." I whispered.

He half opened his eyes and looked down at me. "Why did i get so lucky to see this beautiful view every morning?"

I didn't know if i should snorted or melt with those words, so i just looked at him and blinked a couple of times.

He chuckled softly and reached out to caress my cheek with the back of his hand. He smiled softly at me and i returned his smile. 

I looked into his eyes, that brown orb that always see the best and beautiful in me, that eyes that can see right through my soul and that eyes that i will never get tired of looking at. 

I started to feel so overwhelmed with him right here by my side again and i suddenly remember the days, weeks and months where i struggled to go on with my life because of that unfortunate event. 

I have to admit that before that accident happened i didn't see and appreciate how important Namjoon is to me. Although i love him more than anything else in this world, building a career and finishing my education became the most important thing for me that it came to a point where I'm neglecting him.