loving you is a losing game I ✔️

t h i r t y - n i n e

Today is the day, it's the day that most kids don't get to witness from there parents.. or parent it's the day where you get to experience how much love they have for each other and they couldn't live without each other

I look down at my light pink flowy long dress one more time then look up into the tall mirror and look at the loose girls in my hair turned into a low bun with some hair coming from the sides and the flowers in the back

I look at my face to make sure my mascara isn't running or anything

I smile and not just because of this day because of how happy I am and found happiness with chase for a while now, I just hope it lasts because I can't break again its like I'm drowning but I cant stop breathing when I'm not with him, I'm still young and I don't know everything about love but I know that I love him and I hope he really loves me too so that maybe, just maybe one day we can one of our own days my mom is having today

I look down and pick up a small bouquet with light pink and white flowers with some green leaf flowers too and smell them inhaling the beautiful smell

This day just doesn't feel real

I open the door and walk down to the brides room and open it almost running my mascara at the women that gave me this life that I have and her with happiness

"hey, don't run your mascara!" I almost yell at her

"I know, I know I j- just" she starts as I pick up a tissue and give it to her

"I didn't even really have a proper wedding with your father.. and look at me know in a white dress going to say I do" she spills whipping her eyes

"mom this day is going to be perfect nothing can change that; nick loves you so much and wouldn't change that I mean what's there not to like" I joke as she laughs sobs

"okay get up grandpa is waiting" I smile as she gets up and I take in her beautiful white rosey dress

"I love you mom, good luck!" I say before leaving

I get up and walk out into the chairs because I'm not a brides mate

That's addys job

I walk up into the second row and sit at the last seat next to chase

Oh my god

I can't explain what he looks like in a suit!

"my eyes are up here" he says

"i- yeah" I say as I look over to bryce and maya next to him

"you guys look nice" I tell them

"I love your dress why didn't you show me that before!" maya whisper yells

"I don't know" I laugh

"you look stunning" chase whispers to me

"you don't look so bad yourself" I smile

"I went for the hot bad boy look" he smiles

He's not wearing a whole suit just the black dress shirt and the black pants but cuffs up the sleeves

"when is this starting" he asks

"it should be starting soon" I tell him looking up at him

"I love you" he says

"I love you" I smile and peck his lips as addy and someone else walk down

my eyes shift to nick as I see him looking around being very nervous then the soft music starts to play

we stand up as my mom and my grandpa walk down the aisle and I can't take my eyes off of her eyes as their tearing looking at nick

when the music fades away and we sit I watch as they hold hands and smile at each other

"hey chase" I whisper to him leaning over

"yeah?"

"if you don't cry while I walk down the aisle I'm breaking up with you"

"it depends" he smirks as I shake my head and turn my head back

Once they talk for a minute then go over vows someone pulls out the rings and give the opposites to each other

"do you nicholas campbell take lillie carson to be your wife" the priest asks

"I do" he says

"and do you lillie carson take nicholas campbell to be your newly husband" he asks my mom

"I do" she says as he rolls the ring on her finger

"I now pronounce you husband and wife; you may now kiss the bride" he says before nick lifts up my moms white veil and kisses her