Chapter 1: Always

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TW: Pain, torture from a black abyss, um more pain, blood, painful pain, self hatred maybe?, pain

(I don't really know how these things work)

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POV: Evil Xisuma

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Pain.

That's all I felt anymore.

24 hours. 7 days a week. Every. Single. Week.

I don't really know how long it's been, seeing as all I see is nothing. I've been floating through this abyss, being ripped apart and put back together again over and over again until I'm screaming for it to stop.

It doesn't.

The Void has no emotion. No sympathy. No care in the world that it is torturing me. Tearing me into tiny pieces until I'm nothing but particles floating in the wind, forgotten like dust. If anything, it finds joy in my pain. Or maybe it is just doing what it was created to do.

Punish.

The darkness around me seeps into my skin, clawing it's way into my mind to whisper how horrible I am. How useless I am. How stupid. Awful. Shameful. Hideous. Revolting. Dangerous

How no one could love me because all I bring is pain. All I am is pain.

All I feel is pain.

make IT STOP!

But why would it want to do that? I deserve this, no? 

I deserve everything The Void throws at me. I did this to myself. It's no one's fault but mine. 

Xisuma had every right to do what he did.

Xisuma.

The thought of my brother sends a pain through my heart, more excruciating than anything The Void could ever do.

Does he remember me? Did he forget? 

I wouldn't blame him, to be honest. It would be easier this way. Or maybe he does remember, only to find delight in the fact I'm not there to drag him down anymore. I sure hope so. He deserves so much more than anything I could ever give him.

He did this to you!

He deserves nothing!

 He is the one to blame!

You should hate him!

But why don't I? After everything that he did to me, I cannot bring myself to hate him. Yes, he may have done this to me. Yes, he may be overjoyed to be done with me. Yes, he may be glad I am being skinned alive until I'm nothing but a skeleton of who I used to be. 

Yes, he may hate me.

But, I still love him. 

Always and forever.

I can't hate him, no matter how much my brain screams at me to. I can only hate myself now.

I wish I didn't. I never did before. But that was before The Void sank it's teeth into my body. 

Into my mind.

Into my soul.

Always and forever

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