Autumn's pov
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For the love of God, who in the world created best friends! Their entire existence is based on tormenting your life and annoying the living shit out of you
"I know your bitch ass had a role in a horror movie! ALL ACTORS STARTED IN A SHITTY HORROR MOVIE THAT THEY REGRET" Ethan screeched through the entire restaurant as he held a champagne glass to the air
"Oh for fuck sakes" I groaned, lifting the neck of my shirt to cover my face that was already burning from embarrassment
Not to sound braggy or anything but I was accustomed to having all eyes on me when I was in a room, but this was just different. And by different, I mean embarrassing
"I just KNOW she was the first one to be killed off" Jamie snickered
"No! She's the main character in her story" Ethan laughed
"Oh god" I groaned, sinking even deeper into my chair
The big twenty one years old. Here I was on my birth night in some random restaurant with two clowns I adore being flustered out of my life
Well I can't say this was the first-
I'm sure you've all been waiting on my pov since the first chapter of this book, well here it is
You want answers and insights? I got you
I've already wanted to rip some part of Kate apart, whether being her flesh or now her clothes
The girl's always been annoying and no one can say differently, she talks and pushes people to their boundaries , especially when they don't want to be pushed and I found it highly annoying
Little did I know that was exactly what I needed, a push to get me out of the sick mindset I've grown accustomed to
I think May's plan of putting us together might have been the best thing to happen, although I hated it in the beginning
I never expected to let someone in, especially that short, hot headed brunette who I just wanted to scramble every time I saw her
But just like life, it happened. I didn't expect it but good things comes when we least expect it, right?
There was just something about her that made me fall into a trance. Everything she smiled my heart would just do this stupid swelling thing and I hated it. I hated the fact that I couldn't control how I was around her. Her small giggle she does and looks away blushing melted me to my goddamned core, I remember replaying the image over and over in my head for days and always having that same damn feeling travel through my veins like electricity
It was scary. I've never wanted someone so badly, I've never felt something for someone so intensely, it was crushing my heart and my mind
Do you know what it's like to crave someone, to need them like you've never needed anyone before but you can't do a single thing about it because you don't know how they felt? And you're way too confused to confront it because what if things change for the worse? What if it doesn't go as we expect it to and everything just crumbles. Our smile, our happiness, everything just vanishes in a few seconds
The hardest part was having those confusing feelings inside you, was dealing it by yourself. Not having a single person to turn and talk to because you're too damn scared of letting someone see you more than you allow. But then the only person you can actually talk to is the same person you're even confused about
I think I started falling for Kate after that interview. No one's held me in such a way that made me forget who I was and just melted into then. Heck, no one's ever cared to
