The boy next door

Chapter 23

The only thing that could bring me back to my senses was the cold October wind and the pictures of him kissing another girl. I fooled myself again.

It seemed the more I tried to get over and away from him, the more I get pulled back to him. I shivered and pulled my hands away and quickly stepped away from him.

"Thank you for showing me", I said quietly. The sun was gone and with it also the last warmth of the day. I began to freeze and I got goose bumps all over my arms. When I looked into his eyes, I saw endless sadness. It was so deep it made me want to cup his face in my hands, stroke his cheeks and tell him everything was going to be fine.

I sighed and rubbed my eyes. That's how far he got under my skin. He really made me care too much about him.

Right in that moment my phone vibrated signalling I received a notification. I checked the feed and saw a notification from an unknown number.

Wow, Jimin really asked me out on a date. I remembered Jungkook was still standing next to me watching me and I put down my phone.

"Who is it?", he asked scowling.

"Um, I don't know if you...", I searched for words. I wasn't sure if I should tell him about Jimin. It seemed like they weren't the best friends.

"Tell me, Y/N", he demanded piercing me with his dark eyes.

"It was Jimin", I told him the truth, "he asked me if I wanted to go on a date."

He groaned and lifted his arms to run his hands through his hair. He turned to the side and took a few moments to look at the rooftops of the other houses and calm down.

"What happened between you?", I asked trying to understand his heavy reaction.

"Y/N", he said determined turning towards me and looked at me with a look in his eyes which made me gasp. He was literally pleading with his eyes.

"Please, don't go out with him", he said, "it's the only thing I'm asking you to do. Even if it's the last thing I request from you."

I furrowed my eyebrows and tried to find out what was bothering him. He kisses girls whenever he wants and lets me go out with loads of boys, but not with Jimin?

"Why?", I asked, "Jimin mentioned something like that he 'doesn't want it to happen again'. What did he mean?"

"You met him already?", he asked raising his voice. He really seemed desperate. "It doesn't matter why", he said, "please, just don't do it."

"I want to know why if I'm supposed to do what you say", I demanded crossing my arms in front of my chest trying to ignore the biting cold.

"Y/N...", he said tugging on his hair, "I can't tell you. I just don't want you to get hurt."

He doesn't care about me, but takes care of me every time I get drunk. He's jealous of every boy I go on a date with, but he doesn't like me. He plays with my feelings, but doesn't want me to get hurt by Jimin?

"Then I think I can't do it", I told him, "I'm sorry, Jungkook. I really like him, he seems like a nice and honest person. I want to give it a shot."

"Y/N, please", he said quietly. His eyes were filled with pain.

"Tell me the truth, Jungkook", I repeated my words, "this is your last chance. I'm not going to turn back."

He looked at you for a long time, but he stayed silent.

"Fine", I gave up, "goodbye, Jungkook." I turned around and went inside my room. I could've sworn that I saw a person quickly hiding in the shadow on the street when I closed the door behind me.

I pushed the thought away when I shut the curtain so I could be alone since Jungkook was still standing on my balcony. I sunk to the floor in front of my bed, pulled my knees to my chest and hugged them tightly.

I took a deep breath and let go of everything. I let the tears stream down my face until my vision was completely blurred. I cried out loud not caring if anyone could hear me. I had to let go of all the pain that has built up inside of me.

I barely noticed that the door to my room was opened and my mum came inside. She sat down next to me and pulled me into her embrace which made me cry even harder. My whole body was shaken by my heavy sobs while she kissed my head and stroked my back.

"Mum..", I sobbed, "it hurts so much."

"I know, honey", she whispered kissing my head again, "I know."

After my emotional breakdown I felt like I was in a trance and my mother helped me to get ready for bed. Fortunately, I was so exhausted from crying that I immediately fell asleep.

I woke up in the morning and I still felt crushed. I looked into the mirror and groaned. Today I had school and there was no way no one wouldn't notice I cried. My eyes were puffy and I had dark circles under my eyes.

However, I got ready for school and reassured my mother that I was fine before I left the house. I was relieved that Jungkook wasn't waiting outside for me and I could walk to school on my own.

Soojung noticed immediately that I wasn't feeling okay and hugged me tightly. "Do you want to talk about it?", she asked as we walked to class.

I was about to say no when I looked up into her eyes and I realised I had to tell her about Jungkook. I needed someone who knows about how I feel about him and who can take care of me, when I break down again. And I trust her more than anyone.