The Burning Desire

Chapter 44

"Have you dated anyone before? You know, while you were abroad?" Jordan asked out of the blue.

Ito na ata ang pangatlong date namin. Katulad lamang noong una ay nasa isa na namang kaming restaurant.

Hindi ko alam kung gusto niya ba na libutin namin ang lahat ng 5 star restaurant dito sa Manila dahil palipat-lipat kami.

So far ay ayos naman ay pag-uusap namin. We just talk normally, iyong walang pino-problema tungkol sa nakaraan. We started from a scratch.

Katulad ng sinabi niya noon ay hindi niya ino-open ang topic tungkol sa nangyari dati. But I know that in the future, kapag ayos na ay itatanong niya na ito. I'm sure that I am ready when the time comes wherein he will ask for my explanation, iyong rason kung bakit ako umalis ng walang paalam sa kaniya. I am ready to tell him the truth and to receive his anger because I kept his son away from him.

"Uhm, I don't think so. I was too busy-" with our son. "Resting, studying and you know working. I didn't really had much time to date."

Totoo naman ang sinabi ko na iyon. I don't really have any time to date before dahil nag-aadjust pa lamang ako sa US. Isa pa ay gusto kong magpahinga at tutukan ang anak ko kaysa atupagin ang love life ko.

I don't want to date anyone, although my parents kept on insisting that I should already settle down because I am not getting any younger. I know that deep inside, I am still in love with Jordan at that time kaya wala ring kwento ang makipag relasyon pa sa oras na iyon.

I don't want to date anyone to satisfy my needs. Ayoko na makipag relasyon kahit na alam ko na hindi pa ako nakaka move on. That's just too unfair and cruel.

Yes, Jordan surely did me a lot of damage but I cannot just date anyone to forget him. I know that time will come at unti-unti ring mawawala ang kung anong nararamdaman ko.

"Yeah, me too. I wasn't able to date anyone." He stated while looking deeply at my eyes.

"Yeah? But the woman at your office told me na she is your girlfriend? Baka you dated her?" I asked curiously when I remember the woman at his office.

What was her name again? I think it's Vicki?

"No," Nakakunot ang kaniyang noo. "Why would I date her? She's not my type. I do not like Engineers, I prefer Interior Designers." Nakangisi niyang dagdag na para bang nanalo sa lotto.

I felt my cheeks blushing profusely because of what he just said. What a lame pick up line. O pick up line ba 'yon?

Mabuti na lamang at mayroong akong make up kaya hindi nakita ang pamumula ng aking mukha.

It reminded me of the old days. Noong magkasama pa kami ni Jordan. I remember him saying those cheesy pick up lines he got from the internet.

"Where you got your pick up line?" I asked while smirking.

"What?" Natatawang ani niya. "I came up with it. Was it good?" Nagtaas siya ng kilay.

I raised my hands and made a little sign.

"Pwede na," Tawa ko,

"Why are you still not working here? I heard na marami raw ang kumukuha sayo but you declined."

"Are you trying to recruit me on your company?" I asked while smiling.

"W-what? No!" He laughed. "I'm just curious."

"Well, to be honest. I still don't know If I'm going to stay here permanently. Kapag siguro naayos ko 'yung dapat kong gawin ay ta-tanggap na ako ng trabaho." I answered honestly.