Falling for my Sensei •• Kakashi Hatake x OC

I Think You Should Go (Kakashi's POV)

"It's like you flipped a switch over night. You've reverted right back to the Akari that fell apart after Kurenai died."

I know my words hurt her.

It's written all over her face. But she needs to hear this. Someone has to talk some sense into her.

"Kakashi..." I know Iruka is warning me to keep my cool but I can't, not now.

The anger in me is growing, boiling, threatening to spill over the edge.

"Do you even know who the fuck they are!" I point at the two men, known for being village trash.

Fucking Deidara and Yahiko.

How did she even end up with the likes of them. She can be so damn naive.

She scoffs at my words.

"Why do you insist on controlling me?"

Controlling her!? I could rip my fucking hair out.

"Controlling you!?"

My voice no longer belongs to me. It belongs to the fury that has consumed my entire body.

How can she think I want to control her? I fucking care about her.

"We have no control over you! You have no control over you! You are fucking out of control Akari!"

I don't even recognize my own voice at this point. I just want the words to hurt her, to sink deep inside where she can begin to understand them.

"Ari, do you want us to take care of them?" I hear that punk bitch Deidara say from behind her.

The fireball of rage explodes in my chest as I move to lunge at him only to be pulled backwards by Iruka's stone grip.

"No, no Deidara, it's fine." Bile rises in my throat at the sound of his name coming out of her mouth.

The way he looks at her makes my stomach sick.

Asuma snaps at the two men standing stupidly behind Ari but I'm so overtaken in my own anger that I don't hear him.

She looks back at me and I can see her cheeks beginning to flush with outrage.

"You were the one that suspended me from the team for a week. And for fucking defending myself?"

She thinks it's fucking personal?

I suspended her because of the way she handled Sakura.

"You were reckless and immature! And look at you right now. Out drinking with some thugs of the village! You're irresponsible, and losing grip on yourself and you have no understanding of the consequences that can come from your behavior!"

She looks as if she could kill me.

"Then why did you fuck me!"

Oh, fuck.

I close my eyes for a moment, afraid to look at Asuma and Iruka. I don't want to see how they will look at me after they found out that Ari and I had sex.

I open my eyes and I know that my face reflects what i currently feel burning a hole in my chest.

Regret.

I regret leaving her the way I did that night. I should've stayed and explained to her.

I should've been honest with her and told her I was scared.

I was scared of the feelings that I had developed for her and what could come from them.

I was afraid that pursuing a relationship with her would distract her from her success and goals.

I was so terrified that my irresponsible choice to finish inside her that night could've ruined any chance she had at a future.

If I had gotten her pregnant after a night of drunk sex, I never would've forgiven myself.

I want to reach out to her and hold her and tell her it was the best night of my life. But I can't, it wouldn't be fair to her.

Deidara says something to Ari but I'm frozen in place and I've tuned everything out.

I gather the nerve to look up at Asuma.

His expression is unreadable.

"I-" for a brief moment I think he will say something. Say anything. Cuss me out.

Anything is better than silence.

Our eyes meet for a brief moment. Then I watch him shake his head and walk away.

I look back at the beautiful, distraught girl standing in front of me.

And I know I've hurt her beyond what I can imagine.

If she only knew, if I could only tell her. But I can't. We shouldn't be together. And I shouldn't keep stringing her along.

"I'm so sorry, Kakashi. It wasn't supposed to come out that way."

She takes a step towards me reaching out her hand to mine, but I step back.

If she touches me, I might cave and wrap myself around her and never let her go.

Her face looks as if I reached into her chest and ripped her heart out with my bare hand.

I see the tears well up in her eyes and I instantly hate myself.

"I think you should go." My head snaps in Iruka's direction and I realize he's talking to me.

Fuck.

Between his words, and the look on Akari's face, I can't take anymore tonight.

I close my eyes trying to fight the gut wrenching hollowness that I feel.

All I can do is turn and head home.

As I forcibly put one foot in front of the other, all I can think about is how in love I am with the girl, who's heart I'm sure I have shattered.

Author's note: I had to throw in Kakashi's POV guys! I had another request for Itachi soooo it looks like that'll be the next one I do ❤️
I love Itachi sooooo much.
But Kakashi is my forever love 😂
How do you turn an anime character into a real live man? Anyone?