Warning this book is rough. Not edited.
We wanted privacy. We wanted a normal relationship with no high expectations. But that's hard when you have a whole fan base keeping tabs on your relationship. With that comes no privacy and very high expecta...
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"Do you have everything?" I stress and start listening off essentials, "Underwear, pants, shirts, your phone, phone charger, the script-" I'm cut off when plump lips connect to my own.
My husband pulls away with a smile, "I have everything, anyway I can always buy a toothbrush in Italy if I forget one." he finishes with a smile, and tucks a lock of my hair behind my ear.
Today's the day where my lovely husband Christian Smith is sadly leaving me to go film in Italy. I'm very proud of him, but I can't help the sadness that fills my stomach while I stand in the middle of the airport.
We just got married and I'm already sending him off. On the positive side, we had the wedding of my dreams. In, a small little church with only the people that are positive aspects in our lives. After the ceremony, we had a party at our place. I know what you must wonder; you had your wedding party in your apartment?
Nope, me and Chris about a week before our wedding bought our first house together. I wanted a small little cozy house, but Chris dined and said we needed a big house to fit the army of kids we'll have.
Therefore, that's why our big house lies surrounded by gates stopping the fans that have somehow found out where we live from getting in.
They never seem to surprise me.
As for how they reacted to me and Chris coming out as a couple, it was a mixed reaction. Some fans freaked out and cried... yes cried. Some in happiness and some in sadness. Our new relationships status was all over every news station, fan page, blog post, you name it and we were the trending topic.
I will not lie, I was having severe thoughts and regrets after confirming our relationship. If I thought everyone was crazy before, they got ten times worse. Fans following our every move, paparazzi never leaving our sides. Fans even started making edits on how our kids would look like when we announced our engagement.
I got the most hate, a bunch of teen girls and even grown women started hating on me. In the beginning it was very overwhelming and I would hide all day under the covers with my phone shut off.
But you always grow stronger, and now I could not care less if people don't like me.
If Chris is by my side, I'll be alright.
Chris wanted to try for a baby on our wedding night. He claims we need to start right away. I stopped him right away and said I wanted to wait until after he comes back from filming.
He wasn't happy, but I really don't care. I'm going to be the one growing a human inside my stomach.
Threatening him if he didn't stop begging I would hit him with a wooden spoon, he finally backed off and left the topic alone.
every day, I prayed for the days to go by slow, dragging out the weeks so I'll be able to spend every single minute with Chris.
But time was not on my hands, so that's why I'm standing in the middle of the airport with a frown on my face.
