Life After Legacy

Chapter 15

A/N: Yeah um oops
Let's ignore the fact that I haven't posted in a while and just change the topic??

Ooh yeah Christmas
Merry Christmas or Hanukkah or whatever u do
Happy holidays
That's religion friendly

Sorry

New chapter??
Fun??

I'll try to update again before Christmas but um yeah bye for now

Also this is a sad chapter so...

TW: suicidal thoughts, anxiety, feeling worthless, depressed, technically losing a loved one

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Falling again.
Great.
She really needs to stop that.
I mean doesn't she know it's rude t—

I didn't even get too far into my complaining and self pity until I felt myself crash back into the ground. Of course, it didn't hurt, but i felt the pressure of my back hitting the ground.

I lay down for a bit, not wanting to move because I didn't know what was going to happen.

"Don't leave me", I hear raspy voice say. "I can't lose you yet. I need you. Don't go. Please, stay."

I look to the side and see Keefe, with tears streaming down his face. It looks like he's been crying for a while.

"Don't go."

"Keefe, I'm here. I'm okay. I'm not leaving you", I say with tears starting to form in my eyes.

"Don't go."

"What- Keefe I'm right here", I say with a shaky voice, not knowing why he can't hear me.

"Don't go."

I reach out my arm to touch his cheek, but it passes through his face. I look at my hand, in shock. Tears start to stream down my face, but I don't make a sound.

"Keefe..?", I whisper, hoping he'll hear me and stop crying.

"Don't leave me."

"I'm right here", I say, my voice cracking. I start breathing heavily as my anxiety starts working up.

This can't be happening.

I can't leave him.

I can't let him cry and mourn me again.

I can't.

He deserves better.

He shouldn't be with someone who always hurts him like this.

I'm toxic.

I'm useless.

I'm horrible.

He's better off without me.

I should just die.

Everyone would be better off.

I don't belong.

They wouldn't miss me that much.

My breath keeps speeding up, and I start wheezing. I grab on to my throat hoping it will help me breath.

I don't even have a body and I can't breathe.

I'm so useless.

Can't even help those who need me.

Useless.

Toxic.

Weak

Horrible.

Worthless.

"I need you, Sophie", I hear him say. "I need you. Don't leave me. Don't go. Not yet."

He sobs louder.

"It's okay Keefe, you're better off", I manage to whisper in between breaths.

"Keefe, it's okay", I hear another voice say. I look up and see Grady, who is holding back his tears.

Oh no..
Grady
Edaline
All my friends

I'm so self centered, I didn't even remember them.

Why should they mourn someone who can't remember them?

I'm such a horrible person.

I hope I'm actually dead.

Screw saving the world.

Knowing myself, I would probably find a way to screw it up somehow.

Everyone is better off.

I'm too useless.
Too weak.
Too toxic.
Worthless.
I'm worthless.

I see Grady picking up Keefe and dragging him away from my body.

Useless.

I see Edaline fall on her knee sobbing, clutching her heart as if it got ripped out of her chest. She's feeling the pain of losing a second daughter.

Toxic.

I see Dex stare at his panic ring, clearly still in shock.

Weak.

I see Biana lean on Fitz, crying her eyes out while he stands there, shaking.

Worthless.

I see Elwin fall to the ground as if someone shot him.

Toxic.

I see Mr. Forkle walk away silently, tears streaming down his face.

Disappointment.

I stop looking, not able to watch them suffer because of me any longer.

Weak.

I shouldn't be here. I'm not special. I'm not important. I'm just a stupid little girl who thought she could do something. I'm useless. I wouldn't be able to do anything anyways.

But people need me. People need me. So, I will stay for them. I will fight for them. I will most likely lose for them. I will be strong for them. But no matter the outcome of my fight, I will die at the end. I can't stand to stay, but I will stay long enough.

Long enough to save them.

I need to save them.

And maybe, just maybe, they can save me too.

A/N: That was kinda depressing ig.

So now we know how Sophie really feels now that she's not hiding her feelings.

Lol not me trying to summarize the chapter like some fancy author.

Also, sorry for not updating, but you're all probably used to the fact that I don't update.

No, scratch that; I haven't updated in so long you probably forgot about the book.

Don't worry I almost did too.

Also, thanks for all the reads. Really appreciate it.

Please tell me if there is any typos or incorrect grammar.

Hope you enjoyed.

-Natalie