title: landmine - finneas
billie's POV
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"go ahead. whenever you're ready." i tell her in a comforting tone, putting my hand on top of hers and trying to look her in the eye. "i never told you this because i was scared of how you'd react. when i was younger, father raped me. a lot. and one day he let his brother timothy do it too. they both liked causing me pain when the did it. they'd handcuff me to the headboard so i couldn't get away, they kept a tight grip on me, they choked me, they did anything they could to hurt me. both of them. individually. almost every day." she explains, sniffling through it and wiping tears every now and then. "angel, i'm so glad you told me this. i've always been afraid to hurt you in anyway, partially because i know what your father did and also because i just never want to see you in any pain. but last night i guess i couldn't control myself and it just happened. but then you did it back and it lead me to wonder if maybe that was something you liked" i choke out, trying to hold back tears. "i don't know. i only did it because you did and i thought that maybe you'd like that." she answers. "okay well now i know to never do that again. when we got married i promised to treat you with nothing but love. like i said i never want to see you in any type of pain, physical or mental." i inform her. "thank you billie." she says with a small smile, pulling me into a hug. i wrap my arms around her tightly, holding her close to me. "if anyone ever tries to hurt you i'll.... i'll beat them up" i whisper, making her giggle. "me too" she sniffles and brings me even close. "you look beautiful when you cry, you know that? i mean you always look beautiful but some people are fucking ugly when they cry" i notify her, making her laugh a little more. "i love you billie" she sighs. "i love you so, so much more." i remind her, keeping her close to me.
i can't believe anyone would ever even think of hurting an angel like elle.
i wasn't kidding when i told her i'd beat up anyone who tried to hurt her, i just said it the way i did so she'd cheer up a little.
if anyone tries to hurt her, i'll hurt them a million times worse.
elle is my life now
always has been and always will be
i'm going to do anything i have to do to protect her
and keep her happy
it's weird because i never thought i'd ever been in love like this. i just figured that love was just something that happened to everyone and it was the same with everybody. but this is a love like no other. i know that for a fact. i'm never going to let go of this.
not again.
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a/n: i don't know if elle has opened up about this before but let's just pretend she hasn't until now.
btw, this is the last update of the night because i'm trying to fix my sleep schedule
i'm out of school until fuckin may bro
who wants to be quarantine buddies who text throughout the day? hmu and we can exchange numbers so i can facetime you while walking my dog around the block
who doesn't want that? i mean come on, my dog is cute as fuck
i mean look at him