❝𝐃𝐞𝐣𝐚 𝐯𝐮❞ || FORSAKEN.
OnePurpleViolet
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: A Study in Self-Inflicted Rot :
Sweetness is survival. It is armor. It is the sickly-smooth deception that coats your tongue and numbs the bitterness of everything else. Sugar dissolves faster than sorrow if you take enough of it, if you let it crystallize inside you, layer after layer, until the ache in your chest is drowned beneath syrup-thick denial.
You understand this.
You don't just crave sugar; you *depend* on it. It is your coping mechanism, your medicine, your personal anesthetic against the sharp sting of reality. You gorge yourself on confections like a dying thing trying to pretend it isn't starving. Because to stop-to let the sweetness fade-would mean facing the aftertaste. And the aftertaste is always bitter.
You devour candies as if the act itself could force joy back into your body. As if you could replace the pieces of themselves that have long since been hollowed out. Sugar in your veins, caramel on your tongue, a thousand different flavors melting into one singular truth:
You're always running.
Running from the sour sting of regret, the sharp pang of grief, the dry, choking sensation of a throat too tight to cry. Sugar is easier. It coats the throat, soothes the burn, keeps the tears at bay. After all, if you're drowning in sweetness, you don't have to taste the salt of your own sorrow.
But here's the thing about overindulgence: it rots.
Teeth decay, stomachs churn, and even the strongest tolerance has its limits. You know this. They *have* to know. And yet, you push further, take another bite, another handful, as if each new dose of sugar will finally be the one that fixes you. As if it will finally make you *whole*.
But deep down, beneath the saccharine veneer, you know the truth.
No amount of sweetness can undo the bitter.