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She's sarcastic. She was the girl who never cared what people said. She was far from a romantic; She was Oreo obsessed. 

She used to beat up people in middle school, and still throws her shoes at them in high school. She was weird, a good weird. She was sensitive, but piss her off and you'll be scared.

It was just her and the small, easy life she had. That was until everything had gone down the toilet. That was until her senior year had started..

~♦~

Monsters are just everywhere,

Only a few people are trustworthy.

Would you be my savior if I'm lost there?

'Cause with all the greed, there's left no mercy.

At some point I'll be so hopeless,

At some point I'll get that feeling,

That feeling when trying's Worthless,

Doors are closed, I'm barely breathing.

I need the light, I need a guide,

I'll do things with all my might,

Smiling is hard, life's not so "cute",

You scream and yet, the screams are mute,

When lies, evil and mistakes take all the love away...

When asked how you feel it's always "I'm Okay,"

All the hope you had, got lost in the darkness,

You're heartbroken, you feel so hopeless...

Crying in the silence is the best you can.

Everything has changed in a blurry time span...

Would I be able to find true Love?

Would I be able to ever again Trust?

Be My Savior, Please Don't Be late... 

Give me true love... I hope you understand.


My name is Samantha Walters, and that's how my story went... But who knows how it would end?

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A Little Bit Of Joy | ✔

[Featured by wattpad romance, teen fiction, young adult and psychologicalnovel] Joy Jones was a seventeen-year-old kind and optimistic girl working in her grandpa's flower shop, but she had a secret. She was suffering from acute lymphoblastic leukaemia and wanted nothing, but to die peacefully. That was until Logan Kellerman, a young man with suicidal tendencies came storming into her life and stole roses from her grandpa's flower shop. Instead of running away with what he came for, he found himself falling deeper and deeper into her as she made his heart skip in delight, for she was, in her own words, a little bit of Joy. * * * from some of my readers of this book, thanks❤- ❝I LOVE YOUR STORY OKAY. THIS STORY AND YOUR WRITING- IT GIVES ME HOPE YOU KNOW.❞ - aimawrites ❝This is so different than so many stereotypical stories on here and i'm so glad i read it.❞ -lepus_leporis ❝They're both so poetic and beautiful and perfect for each other. GAHHhh I love them.❞ - alycecaswell ❝The way she vividly describes the world makes me so happy. Heat keeps rushing to my cheeks in pure euphoric joy. This book is making me so grateful for everything around me and I never want it to end.❞ - nylammeeyn [highest rank: 7 in sad] [cover by soulanatomy]