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If I Lose Myself - Dele Alli

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Parts 13
Time 2h 27m

If I lose myself, I lose it all!

"I used to have this notion that marriage was supposed to be perfect, maybe it was, but mine wasn't."

Broken
Brittle
Unpredictable 
A complicated puzzle
All this words could be used to describe Emma Burrows. 
When Emma got married to the love of her life, she believed that life was going to be perfect. But after two years of a torturous marriage from her abusive husband, she had had enough. She had to get away from him. 
Life had permanently scarred Emma, and running away to London wasn't the easiest part. But she was determined to move on without her husband, and with the help of her best friend Astrid she found a little peace in life. That all changed when she met famous professional English footballer Dele Alli. With him came everything Emma despised and wanted all at the same time.
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