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To My Youth [BL]

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Parts 89
Time 8h 1m

To cover the traces of his depravity, Gu Xiao constricted himself to the role of a jester while being torn between the idealisation of others and reality. 

Gu Xiao was a slacker in school, constantly truanting and playing around. Unknowingly, when he gets glued to sitting next to Lan Yuning, the school's top student, a linked past that they never knew they shared, gradually came back to haunt them. 

These students weaved their way through the tangling threads of familial relationships, financial issues, examinations, and identity while enjoying most of their last high school year.

[You killed him.]

[If you didn't ignore him that time, then he wouldn't have died.]

[It's in the past. If you keep thinking about it, it's only going to do you harm.]

[Sometimes I wonder... if you would be happier if I was the one who died back then instead.]

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[I like you.]

[Why... Why would you like someone like me...?]

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Warning: mentions of suicide, homophobia, and domestic abuse

THIS IS A SLOW BURN so if you want to read something fast and spicy then this book isn't for you :') 

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