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Dieses Buch ist keines mit einer fortlaufenden Geschichte. Ich werde hier "Briefe" schreiben. Briefe ohne Absender, ohne Adressat.

Damit ihr einen kleinen Eindruck habt worum es vermutlich hauptsächlich gehen wird :)

"Dein Blick sprach Bände, voller Wut, voller Hass.
Du blicktest mich an und sagtest einfach nur "Sei endlich leise, dann ist alles besser" Damit war die Sache für dich gegessen, doch ich saß da voller Trauer, voller Lust. Keine Lust wie es die meisten meines Alters verspüren. Ich rede von der Lust sterben zu wollen.  Sterben zu wollen bedeutet nicht, sich das Leben zu nehmen. Jedoch schweift jeder meiner Gedanken am Ende des Tages auf den Wunsch zurück über Nacht zu sterben."All Rights Reserved

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