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Collin is lost, in more ways than one. He doesn't know where he is, who he is, or what the word "reality" even means anymore. All he knows is that he's alone. He's alone. And he can do nothing to stop it.


Trigger warning: the whole book is essentially someone being mentally tortured, so lots of mentally icky stuff. Allusions to self-harm/suicide. Paranoid and/or schizophrenic episodes. 

(I'm not as knowledgeable on schizophrenia as I am on paranoia, so take that with a  large grain of salt)

(Part of the MC chronicles -can be read in any order)
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Book 1/2 * * * * * * * "He fucking abused me!" Meet Jamie Da La Cruz. He is on the football team and gets bullied for an incident in 6th grade. His hides from his past and has a thick layer of sarcasm to hide his true feelings. Does he learn to accept? What breaks him, or should I say who? "No, it wasn't rape it was almost rape." Now meet Ethan De Paz. The quarterback of the football team, and two parents. People think he has the perfect life, but does he? Or does he have a dark secret that he hides from the world? Will he tell someone what happened that day or forever stay silent. "They don't care." Meet Jared Anderson. A conceded bully who is secretly hiding, and battling his inner demons. Only person he told was an old friend. Why? Maybe bacause nobody cared to ask. But why would they, he is just a bully. Will he ask for help or keep it to himself? Or Will somebody care enough to ask him themselves? "I'm not perfect, I have problems to." Lastly meet Vincent Blake. A nobody who is always caring a camera. What is his problems? And who does he confide in? When they all connect at football summer camp, will they be the death of each other or the only thing keeping then alive. What, is any, relationships form? What conflict raise? And most Importantly, what do they recover from and will they....recover? "We're all fucked up some way somehow." ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ This book is a bxb and a bxg! But mostly focused on the male to male relationship. If you do not support. Do not read. Any hate to anyone's ethnic and or sexual orientation will not be tolerated. This book is made by two people; me @rainbowthisbitch , and @freakingweirdo14 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤️❤️ P.S: There will be many references in this book, so if you find them, point them out ;)