Unknowingly Halal (lawful)

I stare at him horrified. it couldn't happen my life was already ruined, and I don't want it to be ruined any further.

No! It can't happen!

I screamed in my head and clutched my head with both of my hands.

"No. I don't want this" I whisper shaking visibly.

"Adiba... please calm down... listen I want to tell you something.. just calm down" he tried to calm me down in a very gentle voice but how can I? did he forget what he did to me? if he then I will remind him.

I look up at him and wipe my tears furiously and clean my face. sighing I said.

"I want to abort" I exclaimed and his gentle face turned into his usually angry face.

"What the f*ck did you say?" he yelled and take step toward me. but I didn't flinch this time and matched his angry face with mine.

"I said I want to abort this sinful thing!" I screamed at top of my lungs.

"Shut the fu*k up, Adiba! this is not a thing and not sinful at all" he screamed back grabbing my both arms. and I gave him hateful glared

"It is! did you forget you RAPE me!" I screamed and he suddenly left my arms and hurt made its way to his eyes.

"Did you forget you RAPE a married woman" I yelled grabbing his collar.

"I didn't! But still, it's not a sinful thing Adiba... it's our... It's our halal child... Your my.. my WIFE Adiba!" He said his voice cracking and a lone tear escaped his eyes and I was staring at him like he lost his mind.

How can I be his wife? I am already married to someone else.

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