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Sleepless Solitude: The True-Life Journals of a Xanax'd Millennial (Part 2 of 2)

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Hi, I'm Kurt. A binge-drinking, pill-popping disco diva with a heart of platinum and an appetite for self-destruction.

Welcome to Sleepless Solitude: The True-Life Journals of a Xanax'd Millennial (Part 2 of 2).

Adapted from a collection of nightly journal entries, Sleepless Solitude details the promiscuous highs and drug-induced lows of a gay millennial in his mid-twenties as he tries to find his way through the swamp of young adulthood. Covering an entire year, the stories serve as a chronological, behind-the-scenes look at what happens when the party stops and the Hangover Blues kick in.

At its core, Sleepless Solitude is an effort in sharing personal truths. By revealing intimate thoughts and vulnerabilities with each journal entry, the aim is to present a mind and story void of social media filters.

Life isn't always a celebration, it's not always sunny, and sometimes you blackout and break a few teeth. The best I can do right now is try and pick up the pieces.

Goodnight xoAll Rights Reserved

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