How would you feel if one day you come to know that your most favourite person was non-existent the whole time? The person you trust the most, the person who you rely on every damn time, turns out to be nothing but an imagination.. what would you do? What would Xiao Zhan do? What would he do when his own mind plays with him wickedly? What would he do when his heart gets torn between the existent and the non-existent, the beautiful illusion and the harsh reality? What would he do when his chaotic heart falls for a person helplessly who has no intention other than healing him from all his past wounds and the pain he goes through.. while he is totally oblivious of the fact that whatever care and love is showered on him is merely a pretence, a plan for his treatment? A life full of pain and miseries where Xiao Zhan finds his solace, his peace of mind and soul only when he hugs his 𝗧𝗲𝗱𝗱𝘆 to sleep. And when he meets his long time friend, 𝙏𝙚𝙙, who understands him like no other.. Would the other fall for him too..? Will he be able to ignore all the flaws of Xiao Zhan and love him back? Will he be able to heal the meek guy and end his sufferings forever? This is my another YiZhan fanfic. Although the description seems quite gloomy, it's gonna have a lot of fluff, fun and sweetness.. accompanied with a lot of pain too.. Hope you all are gonna like it. ❣️ [P.S.- It may contain some vivid references of BDSM and erotic descriptions of sex scenes between men. If you feel uncomfortable, you can stay away. You've been warned. Thank You.]