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Struggle for Release

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Reads 29,538
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Parts 36
Time 2h 56m

anxiety celeblife depression eatingdisorder harrystyles liampayne louistomlinson niallhoran onedirection zayn zaynmalik

Zayn Malik, known to the world as one of the members of One Direction. People say he has everything- Money, fame and talent. They say, he is really happy in his life. Judging by his smile, he is. But the real question is- is he really happy? Is money, fame and talent everything? Is his smile true? The problem is sometimes the best smiles are the ones which hide the worst pains. Is that the case with Zayn? Do his band mates know?
Join him and his band mates on this rollercoster called life. 
Fair warning: This will contain mentions of ED, depression and anxiety. Trigger warning.
Also this is just a fanfic, so...yeah. 
Also the videos that I add, they have nothing to do with the story, well apart from the fact that they are sung by one direction. I just like putting them so there so yeah. I will add both live performances and studio version. Also just so you guys know, high notes are done by Zayn, in case you didn't know it already.
Enjoy!!

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Happy Ending Doesn't Exist (One Direction) by leta1d

I was born in a beautiful family. I have the best mother, father and brother. I can sing, dance and play guitar. But just only one talent in our family could be my brother. He got famous and I was just me. I was bullied by his best mate. I had bruises and scars on my body. Brother, doesn't know this. Nobody knows. I hate my bully, my ex with a passion. I changed everything, became stronger and prettier, but for me happy ending doesn't exist. I fell in love and got broken. I couldn't take it anymore. So, now here I am. On this railway. It's the end. I'm Destiny Payne and this is my story. {One Direction love story} Few important rules : 1.DO NOT COPY MY WORK (seriously, people, don't do that) 2 . Don't be rude in the comment section. I want just happiness and unicorns there :) 3 . Don't be a silent reader. Your feedback means a lot to me. 4.Sorry in advance for spelling errors or punctuation. 5.Enjoy Copyright Â© 2014 Mind Happiness Work. All Rights Reserved.

The Institute by axnsley

Zayn Malik is not depressed. Zayn does cut though, scars lining his arms from years of doing it. But Zayn isn’t depressed, he’s not anything. He doesn’t know when he stopped feeling, when he went numb, but he does know that he can feel when he drags a razor across his skin. He feels afterwards too, relief washes over him as he is reminded that he is alive, he can feel. But then his mom found out, now he’s living in The Institute. Niall Horan is depressed. He’s well aware of his depression that has had no real trigger. He had it all back in highschool, he was popular, captain of the footie team, he wasn’t even bullied after coming out. But he was depressed. He would look in the mirror and all he would see was fat, globs of pale skin in all the wrong places. So the simple solution was to stop eating. But that didn’t work, Niall couldn’t not eat. Plan B went into effect then - throwing up. He had only been doing it for a few weeks when his brother found out, now he’s being sent to The Institute. Join the journey of Niall and Zayn learning how to feel again. Friends come along the way, a schizophrenic, mute and a multiple personality disorder patient. They’re an odd group, but they get along and slowly live their lives in The Institute.

half truths ,, l.s by ao3films

Looking back, Harry can differentiate the stages of it. It started with conscious eating, with trying to know exactly what was in his food and not wanting to put garbage into his body. Gradually, he started to work out more. And then came the restricting, where he slowly reeled back on carbs and fatty foods and sugar. But it wasn't too bad yet. All it was was thinking extra hard about his food choices and avoiding certain things. It was okay. Eventually, it stopped being okay. or, Harry struggles with an eating disorder. RUNNING FAST, STANDING IN PLACE (QUICK BREATHS, IT'LL END SOON) BY BRAVESTYLES ON AO3

A Love Close Near Death by ArianaLovve

(Caution! May be triggering. If you trigger easily I advise you to not continue reading.) Niall Horan always been the normal one out of all his friends back home, but that all changed after his XFactor audition. He believes that no one will ever love him. Why would they? He's hideous, fat, a disgrace, and supposedly gay. As a matter of fact, he just might be. There is one member of the group that understands him, that pities him because he knows how he feels. What will happen when Niall tries to take his own life? Will the one he loves follow in his footsteps? Will everyone be overjoyed? Or will everyone regret everything they ever did to him and become overly depressed? (PS) I don't think that Niall is fat, hideous, a disgrace or gay. I love Niall with all my life and heart. He is my saviour, my smile, my reason to be. If anyone thinks that Niall is hideous, fat, a disgrace or gay.... I'll personally find out where you live go to your house & stab you while you're sleeping.

Loving hurts (Discontinued) by H4rrylovesL0uis

Struggling to find to love himself harry battles anorexia anxiety and depression but when he has a crush on a fellow band member will it turn out okay or will it all just fall apart?

13 Reasons why (Niall Horan story) Ziall And Niam by Claricepayne

Zayn was a happy lad as he grew up but as soon as he hit high school everything changed people bullied him and he turned dark. Then after 4 years of putting up with everything he decided he had enough and killed himself leaving everyone confused why he did it and close ones near him were struggling a lot especially a certain lad who had been friends with Zayn since they were little babies. That certain lad was Niall Horan After Zayn died, Niall locked himself in his bathroom for two days which Liam (Zayn's best friend and Niall's boyfriend) tried to get him out everyday because Niall's mum and dad had to work a lot so they didn't really know what was happening until when Niall was out so his mother took him to the doctor and they gave him a lot of medication but Niall only told Liam he was on one medication. It had been a week since Zayn had killed himself and let's just say Niall was not doing well at all. Liam,Louis and Harry have all been trying to help him get through this tough patch but what happens when an envelope turns up on Niall's door step with Zayn's writing on it Will Niall find out why Zayn did it? How will Niall cope? Would it put a stop to Liam and Niall's relationship? Carry on reading and you'll find out Twitter @claricepayne00 Instagram @claricepayne_wattpad Tumblr @claricepayne archive of their own @claricepayne00

I'm Fine || l.s. ✓ by twinklingpisces

I wrote this when I was like 15 so it's awful and horribly inaccurate regarding lots of stuff and the characters are really, really annoying. If it didn't have so many reads and votes and that I would delete it. PLEASE, if you want something with better writing and still full of angst, look at my other fics instead (Tempest is my fav) // Harry is upset, he just wants someone to care about him but he keeps pushing everyone away. Despite being packed tightly in a tour bus with the rest of the band, he still manages to avoid them. The boys begin to worry, Louis especially. // PSSST, i think my other stories are better! May 2020-July 2020

fake laughs by strawberryoatmeal

We've all heard of the phrase "And they all lived happily ever after..." right? Right? That's all that everyone wants in this world. Living life to the fullest with your soulmate, feeling excitement every morning because God let you live another day. You would think that that's what a man who was apart of the biggest boy band in the world was currently feeling. Well guess what? You're completely wrong. ------- i am not trying to shame anyone in this story. (ex, i made louis kinda mean in this; i love boobear dw) ⚠️TRIGGER WARNINGS⚠️: eating disorders cutting lowercase letters (from the chapter "if only..." and so on) non edited chapters cussing MORE TRIGGER WARNINGS WILL BE PUT BEFORE THE CHAPTER BEGINS!! zianourry ;) SLOW UPDATES

Our Modern Fairytale (ZM) [COMPLETED] by Mumal16

WINNER OF THE FANFICTION AWARDS 2017. Ranked #1 out of 77.1k Zayn stories, April 26 2020. Ranked #1 out of 252k Poetry books, May 8 2020. ~¤~ "You know that I'm not Cinderella's Prince Charming right? I'm a guy with loads of tattoos and a bad boy attitude." "I don't care about who you are or what you look like. Prince Charmings are meant for fairytales anyways." Bad decisions make good stories and that is how our modern fairytale started. ~¤~ COPYRIGHT © Mumal16. All rights reserved. This material may not be brodcast, republished or manipulated. ZAYN MALIK (AU) which means if you aren't a fan of him, you can still read the book because he is not a singer or a member of one direction in this book. Just a normal book character. Cover: @corvums

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