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"Do you think I'm desperate for love?" She gives me a confused look and carries on with our science project.This girl though!
"Lebo..do you think I'm like in need of love? Like desperate to be loved?"I say again hoping to get her attention
"Well I don't know much
I just know that you're sucker for love" she says and gives a snort .This isn't the right time really. I'm trying to have a serious moment amidst all this madness- and it doesn't come naturally for me. I'm a closed book and sometimes I want to express my feelings but that's not who I am .But when I do I need attention.
"I'm only asking because every guy I seem to be falling for isn't interested in me ,and in a way I'm aware of it but I push on until I'm so deep it's not even called love anymore.But don't we all deserve to be loved?" I say and immediately regret it