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Sapphire's Messed Up Thoughts

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Why was I named Sapphire? Does it bear a dark past? Was my dad's first love Sapphire? Or is Sapphire my great great grandma who disappeared mysteriously? 
Stop Sapphire. You were named Sapphire just because your parents liked the name and Quinn is your family name. 
I can't really help it. After what they did to me, my brain figures out a way to twist everything and bring fear, anxiety, insecurity, pain and almost all the unwelcomed feelings.
             
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But what if my brain is telling me things that others cannot understand? What if it's a deadly weapon I am yet to master? Maybe you guys can help me find out?All Rights Reserved

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