Forget the Rules (SCP-049 x reader)

This is book 3 of what I think is now a series...

Life seemed to be mostly normal to you now. But one thing you could never figure out was why exactly you weren't allowed to be near 049 or even talk about him. Turns out both of you felt bad about doing something to the other. But would you ever get the chance to apologize, or are the rules in the way?