This is basically my life story. I have been wanting to write out my story for years. But it wasn't after many years of therapy that I finally feel mentally fit enough to do so. Rated M; mention of rape, substance abuse, domestic violence, suicidal idealization, self harm, eating disorders and suicide attempts. Please be careful reading this. And remember to reach out if you feel alone. Even if it is a crisis line. Lots of love, Nyx.