what depression feels like (read desc)

disclaimers:
1: i was diagnosed. i am not faking and never have.
2: this is not ment to substitute an actual diagnosis. this is just for awareness and education.
3: every person with depression has slightly different symptoms and experiences. this is just how it is for me.

trigger warnings:
self harm
suicide
blood
trauma
mental illness
toxic relationships
abuse
anxiety
drugs
derealization
dissociation