In Ohio we meet a girl named Kay. Kay is a sophomore in high school. Kay wanted nothing more than to be normal but they never were. Growing up Kay got harassed and bullied but always tried to make things better for themself whether it was good or bad. On top of that Kay had ADHD and smiling depression forcing them into a fake happiness she couldn't escape from. They also had a homophobic family so they could never show their true non binary and Pan colors. Forced to be alone and hurt by everyone around them. Will Kay ever figure out the meaning of love? Or will she live with a very broken smile... This story is written for 15 year old me(Hana) wishing she could show her non binary and Pan colors to her parents while also battling her smiling depression and ADHD trying to force herself to be normal but meeting people along the way when she finally figures out what love should mean. All events have happened to me in real life names were just changed to protect privacy