"It's one thing to lose a family member from old age, or just them peacefully dying in their sleep, but he...he was only eighteen. I watched the life leave his eyes, I felt his pulse leave his wrist, I touched his cold skin as his body heat plummeted, I knelt in the pool of his blood for hours after he was long gone..." -chapter 119 ~~~ TW: This story will contain self harm/attempted self harm, suicide talk/thoughts, anxiety/panic attacks, eating disorders, underage drinking/smoking, lots of swearing, teen pregnancy, spice and a bit of smut. Cover by AlexandraLing2000