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Book two in that back to you series. Read book one, "Back to believing", if you don't none of this is going to make sense.
                                                                                  
After everything that happened with the demon Alexis was more confused than ever about what was going on with her. The doctors told her that she healed very quickly after the car accident. Unexpectedly quickly. Now she was trying to figure out what the demon meant and help the Winchester's with the death of their father.

All while helping hunt down this demon, meeting new hunters, and realizing that Dean means a lot more to her than she previously had thought. She also can't shake the feeling she's being watched all the time. 

She starts to uncover the dark secrets of her family. Of her mother's. She tries to figure out what the demon wants from her, and how she can help kill it. And now, her nightmares have went from keeping her up for a few hours to scared to even close her eyes. The nightmares are getting more and more vivid as she watches them unfold every night. 

She can't stand the feeling of helplessness she has to live with now. The jumping at every shadow behind her, the fear of the dark and what lurks inside it, the dread that never leaves, the horror that awaits her every time she drifts off to sleep. Alexis wants it all to stop. But maybe with the Winchester's here to help her, like she's there to help them, it won't be that bad.

Or will the shadows overtake Alexis? Will she drown in the darkness? Will that one light that she has burn out? Or will she make it through these dark times? And how is she sure better times wait ahead? Are there?

DISCLAIMER: I do not own supernatural, all rights go to Eric Kripke. I only own Alexis and her plotlines, also a few other characters that aren't in the show.All Rights Reserved

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Back to you | Dean Winchester [4] by courtneybunny2

With Dean back from hell everything seems to be looking up for Alexis. Sort of. She's still recovering from all the new information she's been thrown in the last four months. All while trying to help Dean with hell haunting him. She knows it is, even if he won't tell her. Its battle after battle, and she knows she can't lose hope. She can't let go so easily. They'd been through so much, everything would be okay. It had to be. And all the while she's battling her mother, who she recently connected with. Alexis us sure her mothers intentions aren't pure, but she offered something Alexis couldn't turn down. Alexis also has been making some questionable decisions in the name of revenge and love. Her heartbreak was healing now that Dean was back, but things seemed to be slowly shattering all over again. She can't let go. She has to stay strong. Or who knows what she'll lose.

Reawakening || Book 1 of 'Reawakening Series' by ree_louise

I felt sick to my stomach, nerves overcoming me at the thought of seeing him again after all these years. I know he's going to be angry, furious in fact and I know this will be one of the most difficult moments of my life, which is big seeing what I've been through. But I will see him again, and that is something I've only ever dreamed of. Addison Jones wasn't born a hunter, she was thrust into it against her will. After John Winchester was involved in hunt that left Addy an orphan at the age of fourteen, he took her in and made her apart of the family, t aching her the family business. There she met Dean Winchester, where the two madly fell in love. But after unforeseeable circumstances overcoming her, she was forced to leave behind the one man she would ever love. Three years on and now she's back due to orders, much to the confusion and anger of Dean. Old feelings emerge mixed with anger and resentment. Will the two ever get back together? Will they ever make it past this incident? Will Addy ever tell Dean the reason she left and broke his heart? I do not own any of the 'Supernatural' characters or plot lines, however I do own my original characters and plot lines and I will not tolerate them being stolen. This is the first book of the 'Reawakening' series, Fortitude is Book 2, and Denouement is Book 3. Copyright ree_louise

Back To Believing | Dean Winchester [1] by courtneybunny2

Alexis Hart or Smith, as she prefers, grew up learning to hunt the things that go bump in the night. It was her life. She was taught it was the only thing that mattered. She never knew what normality felt like, she didn't even know what it was like to be a normal hunter. That was until she met Dean Winchester. At the age of thirteen Alexis was on a hunt with her father, he went out and said he'd be back in a little bit. Then when he didn't show up or even call Alexis knew what had happened. She was stuck here and after a few days of sitting in the motel room she decided to check out the supposedly haunted house where she met the fourteen year old Dean Winchester. She'd never met a hunter her age before. She hadn't met many hunters at all. Over the course of a week and a half the two grew close, bonding over the fact they both grew up hunting. Dean had even introduced her to his little brother Sam. When John came back from his hunt Dean did something Alexis had least expected. He asked of she could stay with them, seeing she had no where else to go. John pitied her and let her tag along. Now, almost thirteen years later dean and Alexis are still best friends. They still hunt together. And when John goes missing Alexis is determined to help Dean find his father. Dean and Alexis break into Sams college apartment in hopes of convincing him to help them. Alexis also has to figure out what these weird dizzy spells she keeps getting are. What happens when she starts to think they are more than just dizzy spells? And all the while learning to accept that she might just have feelings for the hunter that gave her a chance thirteen years ago. Disclaimer: I do not own supernatural. All rights go to Eric Kripke, the only characters or plotlines I own are the ones that are not in the show. DISCLAIMER: I do not own supernatural. All rights go to Eric Kripke. I only own Alexis and her plotlines.

Sacrifices (Dean Winchester x Reader) by AstralShadows

*in queue for editing* A huge thank you to @bloomedroses who loved the story so much that they made an amazing cover for me! I love it so much!! Your family died eight years ago, you were fifteen. After their death you lived with a family friend until you turned eighteen and you take the first chance you could you took off on a journey to get revenge. You left behind the only family you had left. Five years later you have a job and one night a series of events is set into action. You meet the Winchesters and head off on a journey that would test your mettle as a hunter and reunite you with the last of your family. But this job is never easy. And you find yourself with a difficult decision to make in order to save Dean. ((I don't own any spn characters or rights to them, nor do I claim to. This is purely a work of fiction out of love for the show.)) Mature content alert! There will most likely be violence, swearing and the potential for adult content or hinting at it. Read at your own risk and enjoy!

A Million Reasons || Book 2 of 'I Caught Fire Series' by ree_louise

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Stranger by naii_reads1111

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