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Spiral

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alcoholism anger burn-out depression drug-abuse drugs eating-disorders overworked self-harm

Bit of a deep one...Watching Channel 4's 'Being Bipolar' documentary recently got me thinking that I should publish "Spiral". Written at a time when I experienced the irrational feeling of not feeling "worthy" or that  I deserved the great things I had in my life, it occurred to me we invent all sorts of negative coping mechanisms and harmful habits, like drug abuse, over working and self harm, which could very easily spiral into something much more decisive and final like suicide. Now I can't begin to understand what feeling suicidal must be like, and it's no overnight magical cure, but tomorrow could always be the day you meet the love of your life, win the lottery or your mother gets the "all-clear" from cancer. Who knows? Tomorrow could be the day thighs start randomly looking up.All Rights Reserved

alcoholism anger burn-out depression drug-abuse drugs eating-disorders overworked self-harm

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"There comes a point where you no longer care if there's a light at the end of the tunnel or not. You're just sick of the tunnel." - Who I am doesn't matter. How I got here doesn't matter. What matters now is I'm getting help, right? That's what they tell me here. They tell me that the road to recovery feels like a terrible butt fuck, but the fact that you're on the path to begin with, is all that matters. So as I sit in this circle of fuck ups, I realize just how different I am from them. I didn't attempt suicide because my mother was a crack addict who didn't want me. My father wasn't abusive. I didn't have a sibling die in a car accident. I was never really bullied either. I attempted suicide because, for the first time in years, I thought I had found something that could make me feel again... and after not feeling much at all for far too long, perhaps I went a bit overboard