Is there a way to erase certain memories? Memories that creep up on you in the darkest hours of the night. Yet now, all you long for is their presence. You can't forget them because that's all you do now. Estella was just a teenager born in the wrong environment. She needed to take her father's post in work. But all she wanted was to always clear her mind and forget all life's mistakes. And it was the only thing she couldn't do. *** "Estella, you need to stop!" shouted a man whose voice I recognized all too well from behind me. "Stop what? The only thing that this world has taught me to do?" I responded with desperation and rage evident in my tone. I could feel him getting closer to me. My back was facing him, and I could feel his breath fanning on my shoulder's skin, indicating how close we had become. "I have been involved with it since birth, I've been adapted to it now," I continue, my voice getting calmer but it seemed like I forced myself to talk. "But I'm not adapted to that side of you," he whispered into my ear in a soft tone for the first time since I met him. *** ⚠️ Content Warning ⚠️ •Violence •Abuse •Addiction •Mental health topics like depression, panic attacks, etc •Sexual Content •Vulgar Language ~A Harry Styles fanfiction~