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Out of my Control

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Book 7 in the It just Happened Series. (Can be a stand alone but to better understand it read Never Say Never.) 

Love is supposed to be great and for awhile it was, until it wasn't. I had it all! The perfect husband, well for the most part. Everyone has their flaws but Johnny he was the best. Then I lost him and my world fell apart. How can you move on from your other half? 

Then there is River Fox the one person who will just not leave. Just because he made a promise to my husband doesn't mean he owes me anything. He infuriates me to no end! I just can't get him out of my mind, and it kills me!

"Katrina." He never calls me by my name. It's always princess, stubborn, a pain in his ass. "Look at me." I can't because when you call my name it does things to me, I know it shouldn't!

"Please, just stop!" Do. Not. Cry! I can't take the guilt anymore. "Just go. Please!" The first tears fall as the door slams shut.

I'm betraying him by wanting his close friend. Even though I try to fight, I can't resist him. I hate it! I hate him, but mostly hate myself for the desire I have for the one man I shouldn't.

How did everything get so out of my control?

Disclaimer: I do not own any rights to pictures or songs in the story unless said otherwise. They just portray how I  see my characters and the songs inspire certain aspects of the story.

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