Omega Castiel Novak doesn't think he's ever known a happy life, never known love. He's never known what it's like to even feel content. Then, one day, his dad skips town, truly leaving him to raise his kid brother on his own. And that would be hard enough but his father also left him with a debt, and when the mysterious Dean Winchester shows up to collect, he falls deeper into feeling like he will never know a day of happiness. That he will always regret the day that Dean Winchester ever laid eyes on him. **Trigger warnings: suicidal ideations, suicidal thoughts, physical violence, sexual assault, smut.** **Please envision Jensen Ackles as soldier boy, and a small cute young Cas for your reading pleasure.** **Story cover found from winchester-reload on tumblr**