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If only I knew then // phan

DisciplinedAliens

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DisciplinedAliens

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Dan is a classic badass tattoos piercings the deal. His parents aren't ashamed of him but aren't proud. Phil on the other hand is a nerd, video games, computers, extremely brutally beaten at school and home the deal. His parents are ashamed of him and let him know that everyday, they are ashamed because he's gay.  Dan was the main bully of Phil, never hit him, he name called and the occasional shove, or putting his foot in front of him so he tripped. Dan wasn't proud, he hated what he did to Phil. He hated himself for what he did to Phil, because he always had to hear him cry. And plead for it to end.






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Too Close (Phan)

Phil Lester is a well known youtuber. He hides behind the camera, he acts the way that he wants to but he scared to be himself at school. He's popular and he's not happy like that. Dan is sweet and rarely talks. He is always afraid that somebody will hurt him so he tries to stay away from people and emotions. Dan struggles with depression, selfharm, bullies, anorexia, a dark past, and being fostered by an abusive family. His mom and dad died when he was 13 and he blames himself everyday. His 7 year old sister is the only thing keeping him alive and sane. Phil feels bad for Dan, but he can't show it unless he wants to get hurt to. Little does Phil know, Dan is quickly losing control of his life. Read this book to go on this adventure with Dan and Phil. (Will mostly be written in Dan's POV) WARNINGS: This story will have very triggering content that deals with self harm, depression, self hatred, anorexia, abuse, harsh language, bullying, mentions of rape, bulimia, and anxiety. Please be careful reading my book and I am always here to talk if you need it. Also, Dan is shorter in this book, about 5'9" cause I have a thing with height.